(EXO Chanyeol Fanfic) Goodbye Summer

II

1st Grade of Primary school.

"Mom~", I couldn't stop tugging on my mother's sleeve, I was dragged to a new unfamiliar school which I didn't honestly anticipate to attend to. A new uniform, a totally different system from kindergarten. It gave my mom another reason for me to look more neat and as she would say, prettier. My mom enrolled me to a school not too far from my house, I was regretting every single minute of it because it wasn't worth coming to school with a happy face. 

Especially now that I know that, he's gone. He's somewhere far off from my reach but all that's left was a promise that we both made, and I held on to that promise.

"Yeo Reum, you have to go to school", my mom says for the last time. "Mom has to go to work", she reminds me, looking back at her watch. I wanted to brim my eyes with tears but I couldn't, it was hard trying to cry when you're not really sad. I'm just not hyped for it. "Fine", I grumbled, dropping my arms down in defeat. "Good girl", I felt my mother pressing her lips on my forehead. "I'll see you later, okay?"

"Okay, I replied and walked inside the school. I had trouble looking for class, not one of my favorite moments of school entrances. I was the lost lamb, looking for Mary. Many kids around my age shifted here and there, passing by me, there were familiar faces, there were strangers. Lots of them were taller than me. 

In the end, I wasn't a lost lamb anymore because I found my classroom. Lots of kids were already sitting down and front seats were already occupied, so I walked all the way to the back and sat near the windows. I love window panes, they're amazingly efficient. We came to the most disturbing part of the day which I never liked to encounter, self-introduction. The very least thing that made me relieved was we had to go up in front in the order where we were sitting. And I, the lost lamb, was one of the silhouettes at the back.

It all went too fast. I didn't already realize that it was my turn to speech out my introduction. My neck gulped in sternly. All eyes were constant diverted towards me, I couldn't look at all of their faces directly. At the age of 6, I haven't really released my inner soul yet. I decided I wanted to do my introduction briefly and straight to the point. Name, Age and that's it. "I'm Cha Yeoreum. I am 6 years old", my eyes flashed opened. 

Everybody had their own expressions and reactions. 

"Yeoreum? You mean the season, summer?", a girl with top pigtails, wrapped in ribbons and straight-trimmed bangs said to me in a mocking tone. After that mocking voice went landing into my ears, I unconciously bit my bottom lip. "How can you handle the winter?", the other boy in front turned to his friends into laughing. It couldn't stop echoing, I couldn't get the fact that I was the reason of their amusement, my name was their amusement. Summer was a name that I cherished so much that I wanted to dig my fist into someone's face if they were to nonsensely insult it.

"Alright, children. That's enough. Yeoreum is a very special name", our teacher turned to smile and wink at me. Ms. Jang was very beautiful, she had her long brown tousled swepted at her right side and her fringes naturally curled at the sides of her face. "Let's start an activity, shall we?", she said to the rest of the class and the topic of the ridiculous name had died down, gladly.

It made me miss Chanyeol even more. He's probably somewhere out there far from my reach, far from where I could see his smile and somewhere far that I won't even a hear an echo of his voice. I missed him terribly. I started thinking that if he were here, things would've been a lot better. I would be able to love my name even more, if someone else had adorn it too.

"I'm sorry! I'm late!"

See? I'm already hallucinating. Maybe for the next hours, my mom wouldn't picking me up from school but from the hospital.