Skylar

Hello Skylar.

"Hi... My name is Skylar. I am 17 years old and I am here for suicide attempt"

Before we go any further let's rewind back to 2011 when it all started.

**December 23, 2011**

"FROM THE DEATHS OF HELL, SO FAR I FELL, A DEAL MADE WITH THE DEVIL. AFTER ALL THE DUST HAS SETTLED!!!"

"Skylar turn off that awful music and get ready! You're going to be late for your first day of school!" Screamed my mom. You may be thinking, wow first day four months into the school year... that's crazy! Well my "loving mother" (saying sarcastically) moved me out that school because I was getting bullied. "Skylar, Honey... Promise me you'll be normal for once... and not be weird." My mom tells me as we pull up the school parking lot. "Why can't you just be like your cousin?!" That is when I realized how little my mother loved me. I walk to my classroom, Room 804 and walked in...

"Class may I have your undivided attention please. We seem to have a new student" Says Ms. Tiffany (My homeroom, Math and Social Studies Teacher). My heart is racing as the room grew silent. Everybody in the classroom is staring at me as if I were some type of monster. "Hi... My name is Sky -Skylar" I say with a low shaky voice. As I stand there in the front of the room like a lost child I notice some kids whispering to each other and laughing. "It's a pleasure to have you in our class, Skylar" Ms. Tiffany said. "Go on and find a seat that you would be comfortable in"

As I walk slowly around the classroom I find a couple empty seats but each one im unwelcomed to, but there was this one seat that was available but it was the broken seat. So far my day was going bad. As I sit down in the broken chair It all hit me at once... no matter where I go or what I do I will never fit in. "Tonight's homework will be to write a poem about anything you want" Said Ms. Tiffany as she wraps up the class. "You are dismissed"

As im walking to my next class I walk fast and make no eye contact.. "Walk fast, Head down, Mouth shut" I tell myself multiple times. "Hey you new girl! Skylar!!" I heard a voice say. I look up and see a group of kids staring me up and down. I knew now that this would officially the worst day of my life...

School ended at 3:00 and i was extremely tired I did all my homework but Ela. We had to do a poem luckily poems are my specialty.

"Behind My Smile"

You really wanna know about me,

I grew up with a broken family

The one i had once looked up to was now dead to me

Id come home from school with my mother in tears

A broken vodka bottle and blood on the stairs

Don't get me wrong i was only 8 at the time

Had no idea what was going on but, I knew it wasn't right

My house would smell like weed, cocaine, and expired pain medication,

And when i was there id get into way to many altercations

I was lied to, abused and told it was all my fault

And i would just stay there thinking what the hell did i do wrong

That was daily not just a one time thing

Sometimes i would just wanna throw a brick, to show show all the shit that I have held in

But, yes you may know my name but not my story

Its all hidden behind this fake ass smile and all the fake glory

Not bad right? Its not my best but its something and i really dont feel like trying so im leaving it as it is!

I get up at 6 am to get ready for jail aka school! School was basically hell for me... The bullshit and the drama was too much to handle. Everyday and I mean EVERYDAY it would be something new with these people! The crazy thing is ive only been there for about a week now and i already know this! At this point i didnt know if i wanted to cry or laugh because of how ridiculous and cruel people could be...