You can't buy everything

Now that I know I need to let go

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3am (RYE)

I can't sleep. Why do I have this feeling that if I close my eyes I'll see something that I haven't seen in so many days, months, years. I haven't felt this feeling in a long time now.

You know the feeling when you want to scream till you can't scream no more but your sobbing interrupts and it takes over your entire body and you cry until you can't breathe? That feeling is the worst and most gruesome feeling you can have a bot you're past. The feeling you shouldn't have about anything.

I remember the days where work wasn't the most important piece of my life... I remember when the love of what I thought my life was lying right beside me in the bed that I now sleep in alone.

I loved a woman called Jessica, she was a beautiful person, she had spine length chestnut colored hair. Her beautiful face usually wore a layer of fine foundation and a light contour. A numbing red was laid perfectly on her lips. She always wore this high school shirt; the number thirty-four was printed at the back of the red and blue shirt and matched it with some black ripped jeans that was sun bleached on the knees. She was the most beautiful being in existence, I thought I loved her that she loved me.

If I'm being honest I don't think that we could have made it to this day, by the way she made it seem like I was the most obnoxious person on this planet I no longer see her as the woman she used to be. She wrote me a letter and left it in the kitchen and that's the last time I ever heard from her. She is originally from Spain, she has her mom's side of the family in Spain including her mom, she must have gone back to Spain. She really screamed it in my face that she wasn't gonna see me for at least the rest of her life.

The letter she wrote was heartbreaking and shattering, I would come to terms with the circumstances in the future but for the time being I was happy with working over time to forget my past. 

I feel myself slipping more and more in to sleep state. I might have to think this through tomorrow, see where all of this leave me... I better not let myself build this wall any further. 

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ANDY 3am

When did I deserve this? I am still awake, thinking about all the good things that have happened to me and my family. I love both my wife and soulmate Camilla. My son Connor is my golden boy. I was hesitant on getting a kid when Camilla first mentioned it but now I can't believe why I ever even hesitated on getting a kid... I love him almost more than my own mother and that's big! 

I remember when we first met, she was placed in the same roller-coaster ride as me. Rye was with Jennifer at the time and I was the third wheel, as usual. So when she sat down I turn to her and greeted her and she smiled. I didn't think about it that much at the time, I just thought cool, I don't have to go in this ride alone at least. As I turns out the ride was a bit trashy cause in the middle of the ride the cart slowed down and was put to a complete stop. That's when we started talking because it was gonna take a while to make the cart work again so I started the conversation and that's how we started knowing each other and now were here! Fourteen years later, we are married and have a kid. It's pure love all through this family and I love it.

I feel the sleepiness creeping over me as I rest my head on top of Camilla's and fall asleep.

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MICHAEL 3am

Ever since I started this business I still haven't seen someone so handsome, misunderstood and beautiful person before... how does it make sense that he's over twenty.

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this was a short one! But I want to thank everyone that is reading this story and that i hope you like it! been working on it the past week! 

thanks again for reading and a update is coming really soon! :)

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