Slowly and un-noticeably. I don't want to know how I feel and I don't want you to know how you feel. I want to let things be how they are. I've tried so hard to understand things and figure out what's what that I understand a little too much and wish that I was oblivious, yet I don't. Everything is so complex that you have to understand it to a certain point before you understand it too well. One you understand too well it's just out of reach, like clouds. If you pay close attention to them they seem so close that you can reach up and grab one like a fluffy pillow, but they're miles away continuously drifting out of reach. When I didn't understand what love was to me, I never felt like I could touch the clouds or get so lost in the beauty of the world and how complex every thought in someone's brain works. I wanted to be like the "cool people" who could write paragraphs of appreciation of the top of their heads or actually be successful in life. Im tired of putting things in a box and labeling it to show the world, "this is how it is". I don't know exactly what I'm talking about or why I'm talking about it but I wanna fall in love, slowly and un-noticeably and to not want to figure things out so fast. Oblivion is my bliss, understanding is my pain.
