-TAYLORS POV-
I eat my dinner really fast, so does Ed. Me and him are out to dinner. I drop my fork and wipe my mouth when I'm finished. "Ok, spill it Edward." He told me was going to tell me about our past. He slowly sets his spoon down and wipes his mouth. He's so cute.
He looks at me and takes a sip of his water. He clears his throat. "Taylor this isn't going to be easy. And before I say anything I know I'm going to regret saying, I just want you to know I'm very sorry about everything I did. I am. Everyday I went home crying and locked myself in my room all it really was a broken heart and I couldn't express my feelings the right way. Its just a stupid boy thing."
I nod, already about to cry because his words are so deep. "Wait wait. Why did you even stay with me?" I ask.
"Because I NEED you to know I've changed. I'm different. I don't even know what I was thinking last year." I nod slowly.
"Taylor before I begin will you promise me something?"
"Of course."
"Stay with me? Even if it's the worst thing in the world? Promise?"
"I promise."
I can see relief in his eyes. "Ok. So last year swung around and you joined this new school. On your first day you walked into gym and I was in there, just you and I..." His eyes fill with tears and he covers his mouth with his hand and shakes his head. "I wish I could get sick with amnesia so I wouldn't freaking remember this. I wish we could just forget it." He whispers. I give him a few minutes then he continues, "I was horrible to you Taylor. You went home crying everyday, and you even stopped going once.... You were missing a lot of school and I wanted to see what was going on, I was worried. So I kinda broke into your house and checked around for you. I eventually found you in your bathroom. You had tried to commit suicide." He's bawling by now. I can't believe I did that. "That's how bad it was. So I took you in, and you got fixed up. We didn't have a relationship, just a connection. After that accident I stopped being rude. I would try and say hi but you just refused and walked away. So one day I was on the street kissing my friend. We were high for some reason. You were at the interstate waiting for the light to change. When you looked at me and I looked back. It must've offended you, you shook your head and waled forward. But the light was green and cars were going. I shoved my friend off and screamed at you to stop walking, but you didn't..." He clears his throat and wipes his eyes. "You were so innocent and it broke my heart seeing you like that. You didn't deserve any of it. When I was kneeling over you and while Ally (my friend) called 911, it hit me. That, well.. I loved you. It was so hard. You're lucky you don't remember. The screams, sirens, you..." He paused. It took him three minutes until he could talk again. By now I was almost crying as hard as he was.
"That's how you lost last years memory." He wipes his eyes.
I go to leave but stop. "Ed. I appreciate it a lot that you told me. But I don't know what to think. I mean, I love you and all. But, I don't want to be with someone who did that. But I can't leave you. So, I just need some time to think. I'm not leaving, but I just need to me with myself and start reminiscing on what I do remember. I'll call you when I'm ready." I grab my things. "Thank you for a beautiful night, Ed." I kiss his cheek and whisper in his ear, "you're ok." He grabs my arm and whispers in my ear. "I'm not ok without you. I've changed, Taylor. Leaving me right now will lead to something bad. We'll lose contact. Don't go."
I sigh and sit back down in front of him. I can't say no to this boy. I smile weakly. "Ed." "What?" "Just don't do it again." "Ok." "Ok." He scribbles his signature on the bill and leaves a $10 tip on the counter. "Wanna go night swimming? There we can actually sort this out." "Sure, love." I answer.
We go home and change and then go to the pool.
I float around in the pool running my fingers through the top of the water.
I swim over to him and hold his hands. He smiles and shakes out his dry hair. I pull my hair onto my shoulders, already soaked. He giggles and holds onto my hair.
"We should get tattoos?" I suggest. "Sure, but I already have two sleeves." I laugh, "as if I didn't know." I smile and peck his cheek then swim away and around. He swims in circles. I giggle. "Tay?" Ed asks from across the public pool, but just me and him are there. "Yes, love?" "There's no pets aloud." "Lol, I know." "Then why did you bring Meredith?" I look at my bag as she crawls out. "Meredith!" I scream with anger and shock. "Ed she always sneaks in my bags." I laugh weakly and spin in the water.
