I just wanna share this story

me 5

I just wanna be a good daughter. But I think I'm not enough for my family. I really wish I just die. I always had a bad birthday . I always feel uncomfortable when I'm with my parent. I don't usually show what kind of person I am. I'm usually bright person I just feel like when I'm with my family there like judging who I am. It feels like they have have hatred love to me. Sometimes I thought I'm just adopted because if i am i want to find Them. I feel lost to life that now I feel really depressed. I feel like everything happens to me now is my problem. I just really want to end my life I'm tired of being fake infront of my friends. Showing them my bright side but the truth im not. I really want to tell them but again I feel really burden. My family cuss on me but i don't care I just want to die so I can feel really happy. I want to reject the but i cannot. My dream is to be a good daughter but i guess i cant be it.