Forever and Always (JiHope)

Ch.15 A Secret Revealed

This is an edit I made of Jimin giving these flowers to you for your and his anniversary or for his and Hoseok's anniversary. I was gonna do a drawing but then I realized, how lazy I was to get a paper and pencil. Sorry fam.

Jimin P.O.V: The ambulance arrived and WonYoung, Hoseok, and I went in and they drove to the nearest hospital while SoWon laid in the stretcher looking like she wants to die. The EMT who was with us was a rookie as, according to WonYoung, he was struggling to insert the IV.

"Hyung, lemme help you. Her vain is right here, now insert the needle right here." WonYoung says and helps the EMT who looks like he just graduated from Med school and is a new intern.

"Thanks." He says and WonYoung nods and releases his hand from SoWon's wrist, but she grabs it back. Rather than shaking her off, WonYoung holds SoWon's hand and she looks at us boys.

"Promise you guys won't leave me. Please...." SoWon says fading in and out of consciousness.

"We'll stay with you forever. You don't have to go through this alone. We won't go through this alone. We'll help each o- SoWon?" I get cut off by the ambulance going over a sudden bump and SoWon losing consciousness as well as the heart monitor beeping rapidly. The EMT and WonYoung turn to the machine while is continues to beep.

"BP's dropping probs from the shoulder. HOLY SWEET FUCK!" WonYoung shouts and looks at the shoulder in shock. SoWon is bleeding again through the badages. "HOSEOK-HYUNG, JIMIN-AH APPLY PRESSURE TO THE WOUND TO DELAY THE BLEEDING!" Hoseok and I do as we're told while the EMT injects SoWon with some liquid from a syringe.

"This will delay the bleeding better until we get to the hospital." The EMT says and Hoseok and I remove our hands from SoWon's shoulder and intertwine hands. "You a doctor?" He asks looking at WonYoung.

"No Hyung. My eomma's a doctor and she teaches me stuff as I want to become a surgeon when I graduate high school." WonYoung responds and the ambulance stops and a couple doctors open the door and the get SoWon's stretcher and the heart monitor inside the ER as us three boys follow behind.

"GSW to the right shoulder, female, 17, named Lee SoWon! Topher-hyungnin you're with me in OR 2!" We were cut off by a nurse.

"Boys you need to stay here. You can't follow them. Your friend will be fine ok. She is in good hands with Doctor Zia and Doctor Kim." She says and WonYoung sighs and doesn't fight the nurse.

"Can you at least take us a place where we can wait Noona?" WonYoung asks and she nods her head and tells us to follow her. We end up in a room outside SoWon's OR which will be the room she's gonna be admitted in after surgery.

"I'm just gonna go into the bathroom." WonYoung says and leaves the room rubbing his head. It was just Hoseok and I alone.

"Mochi-ah, you doing alright?" Hoseok asks me and I shake my head and start to feel tears form in my eyes.

"No I'm not Hoseok-hyung. All this is my fault." I say and a tear falls from my face. "If I hadn't let my stupid feelings get the best of me, then SoWon wouldn't have been shot, your eomma wouldn't have done this, your eomma would still have given you a chance, I even ruined WonYoung's and SoWon's service trip to Gwangju." I say with tears now falling from my face like waterfalls avoiding any eye contact with Hoseok. "I'm sorry Hoseok-hyung. I can never do anything right."

Hoseok P.O.V: "Jimin-ah." I say trying to hold back tears. He doesn't respond and instead just continues to look down. "Jimin-ah look at me please." He hesitantly looks at me and I kiss away his tears and hold his small, fragile hands. "I need to let you know how much it breaks my heart to hear you say that this is all your fault, because it's not. My eomma didn't need to do any of this, but this was all completely by her choice, to shoot SoWon and her parents was all completely by her choice. My eomma is homophobic and there is no chance that she'd accept me back into her life and I take after my dad's looks so I just remind her of him. And Jimin-ah, you've never done anything wrong, I can tell you something you did right for an example, you came to Seoul and found me. You're the light of my life and you're the reason I want to wake up in the morning, you're the reason I stopped cutting." Jimin's eyes go wide.

"What?"

"Do you remember when you found me cutting myself in WonYoung's bathroom?" Jimin nods his head. "Well I stopped for your sake, not anyone else's. Being with you makes me realize how much you care about me and how I'm not alone and how I'm cared for. I'll let you in on a secret that I had to tell you at some point. You were the reason why I didn't end it all. I was going to hang myself during that same week we met. I had an entire plan, but I got rid of it when you responded to me on KakoTalk."

"B-but you are the most popular kid in school, everyone loves you, you have great grades." Jimin responds and I do a small smile because of his compliments and I feel a tear slide down my face.

"I never wanted popularity. Being the most popular kid in school I constantly had random people crowd around me every single day. I never felt loved, I just felt very pressured to be at my best even if I feel at my worst. Then on top of that, we had ChunHwa and my eomma. My sister was the only person who I felt cared for me, but she was hardly home as she's in college. Jimin-ah, I love you so much and I could never hate you. You're my sunshine who brightens up my day, you're my angel who saves me, you're my teddy bear who I love to cuddle with, you're my shoulder that I cry on, and you're my Park Jimin, the one who I want to spend the rest of my life with." I say and I close the gap between us. We kiss for about 5 minuets until I pull away and pull Jimin into a hug. I love you so much Jimin. Never doubt that.

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The Philippines was fun thanks for asking. :)