Bittersweet

Something More

KAIRIN POV///

As i stared out the window, my Dad turned over and patted my back.

Dad: "Hey, you good kiddo? You've been really quiet since I picked you up from the school..."

Me: "Oh uh yeah. I'm fine". But my Dad knew that I wasn't. He gave me a look in the eye and raised one eyebrow.

Dad: "I know that face when you're not okay. Its better to let it out then to hold it all in". I contemplated what to say next. Did I have feelings for Martinus? No. Well, I'm not sure anymore... I've only been with him since the beginning of today, but i feel like there's something more than this. So, i hesitated before I could say anything...

Me: "Well, I dont know. Its just been a hard day you know? That's all"

Dad: "But i do feel like you're not telling me something. And I can sense it has something to do with that boy you were talking to earlier..."

I froze. Theres was no other way I could avoid the question. So, I just took a deep breath and said:

Me: "Ugh, okay yeah. It DOES have something to do with Martinus... I don't know if i have feelings for him or not because i just met him JUST today. But, he just made me feel safe earlier... And we have some sort of click that I just can't even put into words

Dad: "Mhm... it's okay dear. I don't blame you. You guys do seem to get along very well."

Me: "Yeah. We do..."

Soon after our short little talk, we arrived in the driveway of the house. I pick up my things on the floor and walk out...

Dad: "Sweetie, just get to know him more well and see how that goes okay? I'm sure it'll work out..."

I just smiled back at my dad and opened the garage door... My mom wasn't home yet since she had something very important to do at work, so she would be home by 7:00. I set my things down and head up the stairs and into my room. I closed the door behind me and fell straight onto my bed. I stared up at my ceiling, just thinking about EVERYTHING. I didn't really know how to handle this situation. But for once, my dad actually made sense earlier. All the other times i had a problem turned into a life lesson or lecture. And it never really helped me with any of the situations. But, he was right. I couldn't just catch feelings RIGHT AWAY. It was something that i often had a problem with, trust issues. I hate them. And i wish i was never so stubborn to trust people so easily and then they turn their backs on me the next thing I know... I put my hands in my pockets and i felt a slip of paper in the left pocket. I pulled it out to find the paper Martinus had gave me 10 minutes ago. It was 2:00 and school gets out at 2:45... Ugh another 45 minutes to wait... For all that time, I did homework and went onto Youtube which surprisingly passed time very fast. I was so eager to text the number, but at the same time i couldn't. I wasn't too sure of what to say or how to start a conversation. But then, i just went for it...

I typed in the number onto my phone and was shaking to send a simple "hey, this is Kairin." It wasnt that easy for me. Eventually, i pressed send, and waited for a text bubble to appear...

AUTHORS NOTE///
Hey loves! I just hope you guys are smiling! And having a good day! Next chapter coming soon ❤️

~s✨🌸