Tom holland/Peter Parker imagines

Anxiety attacks.

Anxiety took over your body every night after the day peter, your best friend, told you he was spiderman. Peter would be out late so that left you all alone. Your dad would sometimes make things worse. He would come home at 4 in the morning and be drunk and scream at you. sometimes he even hit you.

Your dad told you he wont be home for a week because he was going on vacation with some chic he picked up at the club. He left 400 dollars that he won by playing poker and took the rest of his money.

It was a cool June night and you left your window open a little so you don't have to open the front door for him. you tossed and turned in bed talking to yourself.

"no..no!"

you said over and over. You bolted up from the bed and realized it was just a dream. But your true nightmare was about to come. you felt it getting harder to breath and you felt a knot in your stomach. you felt unsafe like something bad it about to happen. You remember peter and his job and you almost threw up with the things your mind was coming up with. you thought of horrible things that could happen to peter. you couldn't get them out of your head. you looked at the clock and saw that it was 2:25 am.

Summer just started for you and you started off in a bad way.

you balled up on the wall that your bed was pushed up against and cried. you just kept thinking of way peter could leave you. you got up from your bed and went to the living you to try and eat something. it was no use. the sickening feeling was too strong for you to eat, you felt you would just throw it up in a matter of minutes. you sat on the couch with your head in your knees when you heard a thump coming from your room. it was your window shutting.

you knew it was peter. you wiped away the tear to try and hide the fact that you were crying but it was no use. your bloodshot eyes and your runny nose would give it away. you see peter walk out of your room still in his spiderman suit. he stops in the door way when he sees you on the couch.

"y/n? What are you doing up this late?"

you just sat with your knee pulled to your chest. you sniffled and that gave everything away.

"y/n? what wrong? why are your out here crying?"

you came to the couch and sat next to you. You couldn't pull out the words. finally after a few minutes you said

"anxiety attack.."

peter looked at you and saw the tear stains and the bloodshot eyes. i hated to see you like this.

"y/n i told you i will be careful...im ok really.."

"but what if you're not. what if one day some comes up to you and you get shot or stabbed or worse killed.."

you hopped up from the couch and you kept going on and on about peter and how he could get hurt. You were cut of by him pulling you into a hug. he wrapped his arms around you, resting his chin on your shoulder. you hug him back and wrap your arms around his neck.

"im here. im ok. dont worry about me. im fine love."

you have always liked peter. when he called you love it caught you by surprise.

"what?..."

you say as you pulled away a little to see his face.

"i-uh..i-i like you..."

you smiled and looked him in the eyes. you didn't say anything but they way you were smiling he new that you felt the same.

"let go to bed..okay?..."

you nod and are about to pick up your pate of food when peter grabs it.

"i'll get this...go ahead ill be in there in a few minutes."

you watched him walk into the kitchen and start to wash the plate. you come up to him and hug hime from behind.

"y/n...go to bed darling."

"mmhmm."

you muffled are you still clung onto him. he put the plate into the sink and turned around to face you so you were now hugging him properly.

"c'mon."

he whispered.

"mmmmmm..."

you said staying where you were. Peter bent down and picked you up bridal style. you nuzzled your head in between his neck and shoulder. you laid you down on the bed and pulled the blanket over you. peter pressed his chest causing the suit to fall off him. he slipped under the covers. you had your back turned to him. you felt cold until your felt something warm on you back. you felt warm arms snake around you waist and they pulled you closer. peter kissed your neck and nuzzled in between you neck and shoulder.

you fell asleep soundly and so did peter.

~ewwwww this one sucks so bad but oh well! i will be posting on here a lot now :)~