R A P P E R S • I M A G I N E S

54 | everytime ; nahmir

a/n: I haven't yet made up my mind on whether I want to use " I " or " you" in these but they will consist of the "y/n " part of it so bear with me lovelies! Also ... * clears throat* THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR OVER 100K READS LIKE WDF. I FEEL SPECIAL AF. LITTLE OLD ME FROM FARMVILLE (lol literally everyone thinks missouri is filled with corn fields) REACHED THAT MANY READS!? love you so much more than you! I'm sorry I hella haven't been updating i've been busy planning my birthday party and with school.I've been extremly busy but I am back and I will be trying to update as soon as possible. MY birthday was February 24th so since it's gone I'm done planning for this year !!!!!

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inspired by Everytime by Ariana Grande

I get tired of your no-shows, You get tired of my control, they keep telling me to let go, but I don't really let go when I say so

" How are you and Nick? " my friend Alexis, smiles at me taking a seat next to me on the couch.

" We're good... every couple argues y'know but we're getting through it together" I smile back popping some popcorn in my mouth.

Tonight was the night I decided to just have a girls night with all my friends like old times. We were throwing it over Ken's house because Nick decided to have a boys night with his friends over our house.I only invited the closes friends I have because as much as I love having to smile in everyones face because my boyfriend is famous it's getting tiring being fake to everyone. Alexis, Kendall,Amelia & Lynn all went to school together.

"That's good girl, we barely get to see you anymore!! " Lynn laughs.

" I know! Ever since I moved to online school to tour with Nick we never have time to .... catch up anymore" I sigh leaning into the couch.

" You still are focused on school right? I mean I get it... if I was dating a celebrity and in love like Y'all are then I would want to be with my baby all the time too but I just want you to have a future for yourself along with a future for y'all " Lynn smiles resting her hand on my thigh.

" Yeah, we understand you want you and Nick to be together forever but we just want you to have a Plan B. " Ken nods.

" You seem like you're kind of letting him control you, or you are depending on him too much. I mean this is the 2nd time yall have gotten back together...Don't you think you should get a job or something just in case." Amelia joins in.

" Just looking out for you " Lynn assures me.

I nod smiling taking a drink of my soda. 

I keep giving people blank stares, I'm so different when you're not there, It's like something out of Shakespeare because I'm really not here when you're not there

" Hellooooooooo earth to y/n "Alexis waves her hand in my face as we walk around the mall.

" huh? I'm so sorry...I keep zoning out, don't I? " I giggle rubbing my eyes.

She just stares at me.

" I just can't stop thinking about what Ken, Lynn & Amelia said last night. Am I depending on Nick too much? " I stop walking.

" We just want to make sure you're good that's all. It just kind of starting to seem like you aren't you anymore. The only time you said anything to us is last night anytime is when we were talking about Nick. When we want to do something you have to consult Nick or have him give you money, you need to make sure you're still standing on your own two feet." She smiles.

I nod again like last night but it just makes me think deeper into what they're saying.

You get high and call on the regular, I get weak and fall like a teenager. Why, oh why does God keep bringing me back to you? I get drunk, pretend that I'm over it,Self-destruct, show up like an idiot.Why, oh why does God keep bringing me back to you?