The Suffering Decision

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Lisa's POV

My heart throbbed fastly feeling the adrenaline ran inside me to my brain like it could explode in a matter of seconds. I struggled to keep mentally stable but I couldn't help it.

I aimed a fucking gun on Jennie Kim and I threatened to kill her, yes, I know that.

I might turned to be the most wanted criminal in this country after I killed the third richest family's only daughter. She seemed powerless and vulnerable sobbing and hugging tightly her knees. 

I felt a sting on my left hand so I glanced to it only to see my bleeding knuckles, I ignored it. I didn't give a shit about the wounds and how much the blood was coming out through it after I hit her car's window because I was so upset and mad.

My head started to feel dizzy and heated. I really wanted to shoot her but why couldn't I. This is a torture, I wanted her to die so her dad at least could feel what I've felt. The feelings mutual for me loosing my parents, my future and my brother and him loosing his own daughter, it's fair enough but how the hell can't I pull the fucking trigger.

Come on Lis, just pull it, then everything will be over.

My mind agreed to give a shoot but my heart hold the intention to do it, it felt wrong. I greeted my teeth, my mind and my heart were having big conflict right now, I really hate it.

Slowly her head raised up, her eyes was gazing deeply, tried to tell me billion words I couldn't understand. I was hynotized by them, not long from that she pursued her lips

'I'm sorry'

She turned me weak less a second.

Next...

"go ahead then"

Fuck Jennie.

She locked her sight against me.

Her stares. That stares used to melted me in every way. That stares which never got tired to tell me that I'm loved, I'm wanted, only for her. Jennie has it, I'd give my last soul to see that before I end my life, not just it, I always craved her caresses every single second, her honest affection she shared, genuine, irreplaceable. She was my whole back then, perfectly completed me, I loved her, I loved her so much. I might never get my shit together, Jennie happyly faced my best, patiently stayed encounter my worst, but mind you, ain't nobody loved her better than me.

I was zoned out for a while then regained my sense as I saw her teardrop fell down on the black bitumen.

I still aimed my gun at her, not moving. I couldn't move as well. My body started to trembling with shaken arm.

This is crazy what is she doing to me right now? Why does she still give impact to me? I've forgotten about her, haven't I?.


That's it.


I knew I will give up. I couldn't shoot her. I couldn't kill her. Instead changing my aim to the door of her car then pulled the trigger to helped me release my anger.

Bang!!~

I turned around to ran away as fast as I could leaving her, Jisoo and my other two friends. I had to stay away from her and I was helpless around her that made me hate myself.



Why am I such a coward?! 



I started to cry out of nowhere whilst running along the way.

Jisoo's POV

At first I didn't know why Lisa was being so in wrath toward this innocent girl abruptly. Yet when I heard she shouted 'Jennie Kim', then it's obvious.

I didn't recognize her. This girl in front of us right now was the girl who left my best friend desperate and broken inside. Jennie gave a very huge impact for Lisa which made me wondering why.

I caught off guard when I saw her facial feature. She's perfectly stunning and mesmerizing, I admitted. The revelation of her face was impossible if anyone could take her for granted. Everybody would worship her. I was sure Lisa was so crazy for her.

I always found Lisa slumped whenever she began to tell me how shattered her life is. Because of this lady who's sitting powerless in front of us. With a gun directed at her.

I felt bad but I couldn't do anything for her. Lisa told me how much she hates Jennie and her family especially her father.

I wanted to stop this. Lisa would act in rage when emotion blinded her. The worst thing possibly to happen is Lisa to kill her. And if she did, all of us would be the suspects even Lisa was the one who shot. I ain't gonna let my future ended up in jail. I'm still too young for that, I still love my family and my friends.

And chikens.

Sorry that's rude. I was ruining the moment. I'm just sayin.

I don't want my life got wretch because of Lisa's mistake. Yes, I called it a mistake because if she did it  means her emotion did. She's blind right now, everything you did with so much emotions was wrong.

But damn I doubtly to do it because I don't wanna die either. There's chance Lisa can kill me either.

Bobby glanced at me. Gesturing his hands what we should do. I shook my head in response. While motioning my hand to stay still in our place.

I guess this was the only we could do. Just watched. I kept my pray to whoever up there.

God I hope she won't do anything stupid.

Bang!!!~

My eyes bulged out. What the fuck?! Did she shoot her?.

I quickly stood up to look if Jennie got shot but thanked God she didn't. I felt so relieve. Lisa shot Jennie's car instead then ran.

What the f- was that?! Where the hell is she going?!

I gazed at Bobby silently asking me what's going on?. I shooked my head. Because I either don't know what the fuck was going on here.

I felt pity for Jennie who sitting powerless whilst sobbing. I was about to approach her but Bobby called me to bring Daesung who still unconsiou. So I turned to help him instead of Jennie.

We then left her on the street, all alone.

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