Love me please

Saturday

Selena POV

I'm really sad right now cuz usually every Saturday me and tommy would go bowling. And he would always win. I miss him so much. I believe he was the one for me. Kenzie is the best thing too. If I lose her I would be alone. But I met Josh and Russell. So I wouldn't be alone.

**2 new messages**

Russell- u coming over to Josh's? 10:45 am

Josh- hey u wanna hang? 11:00am

Responded to josh sayin- can't I'm going through emotions about tommy maybe tomorrow. 11:03

Josh- k hope all is well 11:05.

I wish I could go over but I would literally cry the whole time. I guess I will go down stairs and talk to my mom. When u go down there she wasn't there. I texted her.

Sel- mom where r u?

Mom- hun I left u a note on the table in the Kitchen

Note- honey I'm visiting your grandma for 2 weeks she is very ill cuz you know she's 86. Please just go to school, practice, and be home. You can visit Mackenzie or Josh but that's it sweetie. I'm sorry I ran off and didn't say bye I know your going through time. Love you lots. You can text me for anything. Bye.

What? I can't live 1 full day without my mom. She gets me through my emotions And talks them out. Agh!

Texted josh

Sel- never mind can I come over I need someone to hang. Mackenzie is at her dads house.

Josh- sure come over

So I'm walking over there and I'm a lil nervous cuz I haven't talk to josh about Tommy.

I knocked and Josh opened it.

"Hey Selena come in"

Selena- thanks. Can I talk to you about tommy?

Josh- Sure

Selena- Today is Saturdays and every Saturday me and Tommy would go bowling. And I promised myself I wouldn't cry but I am anyways. I loved Tommy and I need a lover because my life isn't complete if I don't have a BF. I know that sounds desperate but that's how I feel. So what do I do?

Josh- Maybe I can take you bowling. And we just pretend I'm Tommy. You don't need a lover at 17. You might love someone but not a lover. Was tommy your lover or you loves him?

Selena- whats the difference?

Josh- a lover is you will spend every day for the rest of my life with this person or in love is your just in love at the moment.

Selena- A lover!!!

Josh- you loved him that much?

Selena- oh yes he was handsome and loved his smile.

Josh- oh okay he was really a nice guy and I'm really sorry. So you wanna go bowling? It's not a date just two friends hanging?

Selena- sure

Josh- phew that was a close one. It sounded like I was asking her out. But I hav to admit I like her just a lil. Not that much cuz she's probably never gonna date anyone till she's 25 at least cuz of what happened to tommy.

Selena- maybe Kenzie's right. He might like me?.