"Friends?.."

~6~

//Jimins POV//

"What? Is everything okay?" I couldn't answer.

My mind went blank.

I wanted it...but I didn't at the same time.

"Jiminie?" Hoseok suddenly snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Oh..uh..yeah sorry. I...I don't know what happened." I pulled him towards me and we resumed our actions.

~~~A/N: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) hehe^^~~~

We sat there for a minute, making out. But then I pulled away again. I don't know what was happening to me. This is ridiculous.

"Jimin, Are you okay?" He asked.

"I-I don't know.." I got up and went to the bathroom to clear my head.

During that period, Hobi got a call.  I heard mumbling. It sounded like a crying girl.

"Hey,I'm sorry but I can't be on the phone right now, we can't happen anymore." He spoke quietly.

What did he mean 'we can't happen anymore'?

I came out of the bathroom, walked back  into my room. He was patiently waiting on my bed.

"Who was that?" I asked as I was sat on the bed facing him.

"Oh, no one." He replied.

He placed his hands on my thighs. I started to kiss him again.

But that stupid feeling that won't go away. The feeling that keeps making me stop from doing something I've craved for so long, showed up again.

I pulled away.

"Do you not want this..?" He sounded hurt, rejected even.

"No! It's not that, I don't know what's happening. I guess... I just need time...maybe."

God, I hate myself.

"Oh, okay. Well, I should probably go.." he left to quick for me to give him a proper goodbye.

I laid on my bed. Hating everything about myself.

I mean, like what is wrong with me?

Why couldn't I just live in the moment?

Why couldn't i just be normal?

As I laid on my bed moping about myself, I remembered his phone call earlier.

'We..'

Who is 'we'?

I drifted off into sleep.

//Hoseoks POV//

As soon as I reached my car, I wanted to cry, scream even. But that's selfish of me. I know what he's going through.

Maybe, I don't. I mean I can't.

I'm not fully gay, I'm bisexual.

As my mind paced, I started my car. Driving home I remembered when I liked Yoongs.

This is so different from that. Jimin has feelings for me..

But why do I feel so crappy?

//Jimins POV//

I woke up the next day. I did my normal routine.

As I was getting ready, I realized maybe the reason I couldn't do it last night. Was because, it was too soon.