Zane one shots

forgiveness or restraining order?

Sequel to heart break

Zane's diary
Do you know how it feels to have your heart broken?..... it's like a knife in your chest that you can't see or take  out. You feel it every day when you wake up and when you go to sleep.

Life has lost it's color for me. I no longer feel anything but pain. I really trusted travis with my heart. I was finally feeling like i could open up to others and be myself knowing that someone was there for me. I was so..so wrong.

He has been texting me for 9 months straight now saying he is sorry and wants me back. He's also been leaving  apology gifts for me at my front step.
To tell you the truth i want to forgive him so badly but... but I don't know if i can trust him anymore *tear stains are visible around this part of the page*

Zanes pov

I wiped the tears off my face as i heard someone knocking on my door. "Who is it?" I asked not bothering to get up and look though the peep hole."its travis, please let me in..." "GO AWAY YOU BASTARD!!" I yelled at the door. "Please zane let me explain..." i got up and violently opened my door. "What is there to explain?!, you cheated on me... i thought i could trust you." I looked at him straight in the eyes while i cried. "Im sorry...i-i was drunk and i wasn't thinking. I swear i wouldn't ever do that to you on purpose zane" he tried to wipe the tears off my face but i stepped back before his hand could touch me. "Travis this isn't just a thing you can say sorry to and expect me to forgive you..... you hurt me. A-and i don't think i could forgive you for that." Before i could react he hugged me. "L-let go of me! Don't touch me you-you cheater!!" I tried to push him off but he was stronger than me. "Please zane, i know you can't forgive me, but i can't live without you" he hugged me tighter as i tried to push him off. I eventually gave up and hugged back while crying on his shoulder. "Travis, how could i trust you to not do this again?, how can i ever trust you again? " "i earn it back zane,...i promise on my mother's grave, just please give me another chance..." we pulled apart and i looked down at the floor because i feel like if i look at him, ill want to hug him again."just give me a few weeks and I'll give you my answer" "i understand..." he walked away and closed my door as he left.
I wiped away the tears on my face as i thought if i should forgive him or get a restraining order