Not a love story

Chapter four

Chapter 4...

Finding out that Carlos liked another girl hit me pretty hard. I kinda knew it was happening cause I was catching him in is own lies. It's like having your heart ripped out from inside u. My head was like underwater but I was breathing fine. I wanted to get revenge one him. I was so suburb that I didn't notice he still cared for me. I let everything out with out letting him explain his self. But I was tired of hearing excuses I was over everything. I lost the one time that kept me going after that the next day I quite the cheer team I only joined for Carlos so he could be proud of his girl friend. But I was asked to stay so I did wanted him to see that I was to good for him. I wasn't gonna sink to his level. Carlos was like once this thing holding me up blocking everything out. He was like my main reason I felt happy. Like as if he wouldn't let me fall. I trusted him. He didn't do nothing wrong it was me for even breaking up with him. This is basically just a story not a love story but a story about me and Carlos. I always think about what if. Me and him went on one more date and kissed just one more time before we had came to this if things would have been different. If I could have done a better job to make him happy as if he wasn't the best bf I've had so far. He's that thing that happened to someone he's my messiah. My saving. Messiah means a savor, what Carlos was to me I had never even told him I cut. I was scared he won't see me the same. It's that Carlos he's seems like your typical kid that gets girls and break up and everything is what ever. But no he's not that type of dude he's like a jerk to me and I hate him. I wished he would have never laid eyes on me and I would have never gotten feelings for him. Just karma's a bitch and she gets u right in your heart. But turns out I stabbed him in the back I broke up with him when he left for his trip. Without even caring about how he would feel.