body to soul..

out on the table.

•phone rings• uh, hello?...speaking...no...uhm, I don't recall...eh, ok....ok, thanks. I hung up the phone with a confused Look on My face. who was that? I went down stairs to see What was up. My Mother was in the kitchen cooking up a big dinner.

"what's the occasion?" I asked.

"uhm, we have guests..coming over to-to see you." My Mother said with a worried Look on her face.

What guests? who the hell was coming to see me?....and then I thought about it. My twentieth birthday is in two weeks..and when I was 10, My parent promised me that...but...it couldn't be. no, it's too soon.

"it's My biological parents isn't it?" I said with no emotion What so ever.

"if you're not ready, I can cancel." My Mother turned over and looked at me.

"you don't have to do this if you're not ready, deer."

I looked down at My hands, playing with My fingers. I wasn't ready to meet the people who had left me, for What reason I do not know...but I knew it had to be done. I had to meet them, I had to let this weight on My shoulders be lifted. I am an adult now, I'm too old to still be running be running from My problems. I finally snapped Out of it.

"no, Mother. I'm ready to meet them."

"okay, go and get yourself prepared for dinner, and then come to set the table." My mom politely demanded.

I did as told and went quickly up to My room. I went through My closet and skimmed through My clothes.

•phone buzzes• I flop on My bed to reach My phone, which was charging. I had gotten a text from My only Friend, Freon, He was "5'9, lightskin, and gay. I adore him, That's My best Friend. He asked if I were up to anything and put him up to date with everything that had happened today, also inviting him to dinner. if I were going to go through this tonight, I couldn't do it alone.

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about an hour had passed and I was applying My makeup. I put on some black baggy jeans, MK belt to hold them up, My custom KD's, a black T-shirt, and a tan cardigan. My hair was gelled down in a ponytail, with a snapback. Freon knocked on the door, so ran down stairs to answer. we were accidentally twinning, . He had a cute tan cardigan, black T-shirt, tan fitted slacks, and black Toms. his hair cut was fresh and his was face beat .

My Mother greeted him, and showed him to the table. she loved Freon, He was the daughter she never had..guess I was too masculine for her to consider me as her daughter. we walked over to the table and help to set it. My father can down stairs, dressed casual yet elegant, along with My Mother of course.

My "guests" finally showed, and My father showed them to the dinning room table and we all greeted them. I was trying not to make the irritation noticeable, but I guess I couldn't help because Freon kept nudging me to cheer up. I put a fake smile on and continued eating.

"so What are you guys name?" Freon asked, trying to break the awkward silence."And, how do you guys know, the Dash family?"

well I'm, Alicia...and I'm Jhene's biological Mother. this is Kenon, and he's her biological father." Alicia answered.

I chocked on My wine. Mother let me drank wine for dinner on certain occasions of course.

"are you okay?" My Mother asked.

"Yes, I'm fine...thank you." I answered while head was facing down at the table. I tried keeping My composure but I couldn't help it. how could My Foster parents, and biological parents, be sitting here laughing and enjoying each others company? how could they just sit their and reminisce on MY childhood. like What the fuck?! I sat My fork down loudly, and looked at Alicia and Kenon. "why are you here? why come Back now after all these years?! why ruin My life?! why did you let me go?!" the tears I held back..but the pain, was to obvious to hide.