Violence 101

Prologue

It was 2004. I remember watching Spongebob at the time. That was my favorite show. I laughed as Squidward yelled at them. I heard my name being called.

Dad: Natasha.... Get yo ass up here!!!

I rush upstairs and i walked into my room. I stood at the doorway and saw my father with nothing but a wife beater and his boxer briefs on. I laughed at him.

Me: Daddy why are you dressed like that?

Me being six at the time, I wasn't aware of what was going on. He pats next to him on my bed. I walked over and plopped on my bed. He ran his fingers through my hair slowly. a smile spread across his face.

Dad: You look just like your mother. Just so beautiful. lay down for me baby.

Me: I don't know daddy. I'm gonna miss Spongebob.

Dad:: I said lay yo ass down!

I got scared immediately and laid down. He hovered over me and kissed my lips. I slap him but that wouldn't do much. He grabbed both of my small wrist and pinned me to the bed. I start crying.

Dad: Why are you crying Natasha? It's okay. You'll like it.

He pulled off my pants. I kicked and screamed for help but he covered my mouth with his hand. He ripped off my underwear an dinserted hisself into me. I screamed and cried from the pain I endured. After hours and hours, he finally stopped. Only to c*m on my body and walk out the room.

Dad: You dumb ass bitch.

He walked downstairs. I sat there and cried. Thinking this was only a one time thing. But it started to happen everynight. Sometimes, he would do it out of pleasure, would get too drunk, or out of anger.

 

FIVE YEARS LATER.....

He came on me and laughed as he threw me to the floor. I balled up and began to cry as he spit on me.

Dad: You just a dumb filthy hoe. Like yo damn mama.

He laughed again and walked out. I sit up and clean up my body. I was doen with all the abuse and all the rape. He took advantage of me for five years of my life. Now he was gonna suffer as well. I walk downstairs and go into the kitchen. He sat in his chair watching football.

Dad: Fix my damn dinner while you're in there bitch!!

I turn on th eoven and set the skillet on the flame. I go to the knife stand and pull out two steak knifes and a butcher knife.

Wack him with the hot pan. He'll know your pain

stab him in the heart and stomach. He'll know your pain

Chop off his head. To end your pain.

I take the knifes and hold them all in one hand. I get the hot skillet and take it in the other. I walk int the living room and my dad looked at me.

Dad: What the fuck is wrong with you?!?!

I hit him in the face with the skillet and he yells. I stab him in the stomach and in the heart. He started to cry for me to stop but i wanted him to feel what i felt.

Dad: Please!! Stop this!! I'm sorry I'll never do it again. I promise Just please!!! I'm begging you!!!!

Me: I begged for you to stop!! I screamed and cried for you TO STOP!!!! But did you?! NOOOO!!!!!!!

I raise the butcher knife over my head and swing it at his throat.

THREE WEEKS LATER.....

Judge: Why in the hell whould you do something like that Natasha? You know you can go to juvey then go straight to prison for life.

Me: Yes sir.

Judge: So why do it in the first place?

Me: The voices told me to. He raped me and beat on me. And he killed my mommy when i was two.

The judge sighed and shook his head. I stood there with no emotion on my face. I wasn't scared, sad, upset. Nothing. I knew my father got what he deserved and that was that.

Judge: And what about those five boys and five girls?

Me: The girls would throw things and me and call me names. The guys would pull at my hair and hit me.

Judge: Well..... I'm not gonna send you  to jail. You're gonna serve ten years in the mental home near by. Understand?

Me: Yes sir.

Judge: I'm done here.

He slammed his gavel and got up rubbing his temples. Police officers took me out and took me to the mental home.

Officer: WElcome to the next ten years of your life bitch!!

 

NJ WHEN SHE WAS SIX------->>