Runner (On Hold)

Chapter Two

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Image: Lily, Robin, and Rosa (Dun own this image)

I awoke with a start, pushing myself up rapidly. there was a beeping of a heart monitor next to the bed I was in, making me frown slightly. What had happened? I was hooked up to all sorts of cords to monitor my health as I glance around, trying my best to recall how I got in the hospital. After quite some time I finally remember why. Jack had tried to take my innocence and I had a panic attack.

But what was the point of me being in the hospital? After a moment someone lightly knocks on the door and Lily sidles in, tears gathering in her eyes. "Oh, I'm so, so sorry Esther! If I had known he would have done that I wouldn't have let him in!" She says, taking my hand in hers. "It's not your fault." I murmur, offering a small smile. "You're a strong girl, Esther. Don't let anyone try to hurt you... or do that to you. You can fight them off like you did with Jack." She says, sniffling. I chuckle softly, pulling her into a hug. "I will, Lily. You don't have to worry about that happening." I say. She keeps me in a tight hug, not daring to let me go. "You've... been out of it for a couple days, It's Wednesday." She murmurs, making my eyes grow round. "You've got to be kidding!" I say, shocked. "I wish I was, Honey." Lily murmurs, pulling away. She looked as if she wanted to say something, but was uncertain as to how.

"What is it..?" I ask, tilting my head. She purses her lips, trying her best not to break down. "You've... been diagnosed with a heart problem, Your panic attack must have done something to mess with it, They're trying to figure out what." She says, making me falls silent, thoughts rushing around my head. "Will... I be okay?" I ask reluctantly. "I don't know, Sweetie. You'll just have to take it easy while at school and about town." She says, making my sigh softly. "What if i can't get better..?" I ask, making tears begin running down her cheeks. "Than you'll just have to stay home and be home-schooled... I don't want anything to happen to you." She says, wrapping me in another hug.

In all honesty I had no clue what to say or do anymore, so I just leaned into her, struggling to wrap my mind around the fact that I could possibly die. Soon she had left my side, having to go to work from all the days she had missed, leaving me alone to try and keep my head up high, I finally break down after a few moments, wrapping my arms around me as I did my best to keep quiet.

It's been several days since I got released from the hospital and since then I've tucked myself away into my room whenever I got the chance, hiding myself from the world that turned cold in my head. No one would want a messed up freak. I had tucked myself in my room right after school, avoiding Rosa and Robin, sneaking past Lily as well. I locked the door and sat on my bed, gazing down at my phone. Rosa was blowing it up with worried texts but I didn't bother replying to them, turning the phone completely off and curling up, wrapping my arms around my knees. I shut my eyes tightly, tears flooding down my cheeks as my thoughts begin taking a turn for the worse.

What if I really couldn't get better? What if Lily and Robin kicked me out and I was to live on the streets? So many what if's ran through my head until night fell, where I had decided to sneak out, grabbing a little bit of leftovers and eating it as fast as I could before returning to my room, wrapping my arms around me once more I ended up crying myself to sleep, like every other night since I got the news.

I wake up early, it was a Tuesday today, which meant Robin and Rosa's usual plans to drag me to a Starbucks would have to be pushed aside. I rapidly dress myself in some clothes, not really caring about what I put on and rush out the door in hopes to get out before they could wake up. I walked along the streets, my phone in hand as I pass a store.

By the time I reach the school the it was almost time for classes. Which meant I would have to either be late or early to them. I rush inside, glancing around. Robin and Rosa were next to a tree, both looking absorbed into talking and laughing.  I guess they didn't miss me anymore. I scuttle into the classroom, Mr. Leon glancing up at me with a tilt of his head. He doesn't question me like he did yesterday, instead he just turns his gaze back to his papers. After a few moments the room fills up with people, this time however, Ezrus was in the classroom as well, taking his seat next to me. I forgot that he had been moved classes to match mostly with mine.