Gaara's Neko

Gaara's Neko Chapter 28

Okay, so this is pretty short too.  But the next one is gonna be really long.  So yeah.  I feel really bad for this, but I needed her to feel bad about somethingso this is what she's gonna be sorry about.  Among other things.

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Gaara seems to slump at my words.

"Don't call me that. Gaara. That's my name. Just call me Gaara."

I turn my head towards him.

"Very well, Gaara. If that is what you wish."

He blinks almost painfully before walking closer.

"I'm sorry I sent you away. That I hurt you. That I didn't appreciate you."

I close my eyes.

"Hmm, it's fine. I don't really mind."

I hear him kneel so his mouth is next to my ear.

"But I do. I can't redo the past. It's set in stone. But I'd like to make up for it in the future."

My eyes open, and I glance at him.

"I heard you talking with Nai."

My nose twitches.

"Okay."

He frowns slightly.

"Is that alright?"

Nodding, I close my eyes again.

"Is it... is it true? What you said?"

The hesitance in his voice is almost frightening, how unlike him it is.

"Well, yes. I wouldn't say it if it wasn't."

He puts his head on the bed, next to my shoulder.

"And I punished you. This whole time. I'm so sorry. So, so sorry."

I push my fingers through his hair, staring at the ceiling.

"I know you are. But I've already forgiven you. So you don't need to be."

Gaara looks up and I glance at him.

"I love you. I don't need an apology. I love you, and love means forgiveness."

He opens his mouth, but I interrupt.

"I know you don't love me, and that's alright. But I'd like it if I could sleep now."

He stands up, but doesn't walk away.

"I don't know how to say this. I want to make up for the past, because I care about you."

I nod.

"I know. But you don't care the same way I do. Can I please sleep now?"

He lowers his head.

"Yes. I'm sorry I kept you up."

And he leaves, shutting the door behind him.

Once he's gone, I don't cry.

I feel like it, but I won't cry over someone else's feelings.

That would be useless.

It's better this way, anyway.

We wouldn't be able to have a normal relationship.

He has Shukaku, and I'm The Neko.

With that thought, I sleep.

I have horrible nightmares, but I don't know what they're about.

All I see is moving shadows, but for some reason I'm afraid.

They start to pour into my mouth, entering my lungs.

I try to pull them out, but my fingers pass right through them.

About the time I start choking is when I'm shaken awake.