Disconnected ➵ [Ashton Irwin]

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We got back to the hotel and I was a mess, I didn't even want to talk to the boys, I only wanted to lay in bed all night. I was sharing with Luke, he tried talking to me but gave up once he realized I wasn't going to be answering him. How could I have been so selfish and leave Daniella, she needs me and I just gave up on her, again.

"Ashton," Calum said from across the room, "Come on you'll see her tomorrow, no need to mope around all night." He said trying to cheer me up, it wasn't working.

"He won't talk Calum, I don't know why you're even trying." Michael groaned, as he continued to flip through the channels on the tv.

"Michael, fucking pick something to watch." Luke said getting a bit annoyed that Michael hasn't found a single thing to watch yet.

"Shut up Luke, I'm channel surfing." Michael snapped at him. Groaning I kept my face in my pillow not wanting to be social at all. Then something hit my back, it was soft but still hurt a little.

Turning around I saw Luke hovering over me with a pillow in his hand, "Get up. Stop sulking around and cheer up Ashton." Luke said to me, hitting me in the face with the pillow.

"Luke," Calum scolded, "Don't hit him, leave him be." He said, I appreciate Calum giving me my space to think, as for the other two they just want to play, mess around like always.

"Shut up Calum," Luke snapped at him, "He needs to stop being a big baby an grow up!" He said hitting me again. This time I snatched the pillow from him and threw it at him, causing him to fall of the bed.

"Luke he's just upset an you aren't helping-" Calum started to say but Luke cut him off.

"I understand he's upset but she isn't going anywhere, she will be there when he goes back tomorrow." Luke said, still not dropping it. "C'mon Ash, get up!" Luke said hitting me with the pillow once again.

I got up and headed to the bathroom and locked the door, sliding down to the floor I brought my knees up to my chest and sobbed into my arms. I can't help but get worked up about all of this, she's in the hospital all beaten up because of her dad, I never even knew she got abused. Maybe when she's released she can stay with us, even come on tour too. But that's a long shot, she might not even want to see me after so long.

"If only baby," I whisperer to nothing, as if I was talking to Dani and she was sitting in front of me. "If only." I repeated . I ran my fingers through my hair and tugged at the ends of it.

A knock on the door made me groan. I didn't want to talk to any of the boys right now, I just want to be left alone. "Ashton, it's me Calum," He softly spoke, I can picture him with his ear on the door listening to me right now.

"Go away." I snapped at him. If being mean to him means he'll leave me alone then so be it. Yet I hate being rude to Calum, he's only trying to help.

"Ashton please, let me in, it's only me." He spoke quietly. I thought about it for a little while until I stood up. I wiped my eyes before unlocking the bathroom door and having Calum come in. I re-locked it and sat back on the floor while Calum sat on the toilet.

"She needed me Calum, and I left. I fucking left her all alone, I- I'm a terrible person." I choked up rubbing my eyes. I was still upset about being escorted out of the hospital, correction, dragged out of their since I refused to leave Dani. God, she must be so scared..

"Ashton, you aren't a terrible person, not at all." Calum said, he sat down in front of me and put a hand on my shoulder, "Listen, what happened wasn't your fault at all, her dad was just an ass. You're here now and that's all that matters." He said to me. I looked up at the smiling boy in front of me. He was always looking at the bright side of things, trying to make people happy. And if he didn't make people happy, Calum wasn't happy.