Depressing shit

Why i am awake

The actual reason I made this book is bc I'm bored as heck and I can't sleep. I also needed somewhere to rant. sO yea ;-;. If I stay awake and idle for too long I'll start to think and think and think and I'll maybe start crying because of shit that's happened and I could have changed it but i didn't.
It wasn't my fault. Yes it was. No, it was his. No it was all your fault. You didn't listen to your friends and take there warnings as a sign to stay the hell away from him.
Yes I have a ex that I hate a lot. And I fucking hate his guts. I'm so stupid for believing his fucking words😂😂😂
He even says he still fucking loves me!! And it hurts me a lot! So now I'm trying my hardest
to talk as little as possible to him. People say I will get over him but i really don't know. H a l p