It's him.

taking it slow

As i wake up with arms around me again; i wonder why he is so fast.  He just asked me out.  He just all of the sudden started noticing me.  Why?

"Cole?  are you awake? " i whisper.

"yes. " he says sweetly.

"Can i ask you something? " i say.

"Anything. " he responds.

"why did you all of the sudden start talking to me and liking me? " i ask slowly.

"ash cake,  i never had the guts to talk to you until you talked to me.  after that,  i figured you didn't hate my guts,  so i would go ahead and make my move. " he tells me.

that does make sense.  I was the one to talk to him. 

"I don't hate your guts!  I love them. " i say.

"awww,  i love your guts too,  ash cake. would you like breakfast? " he says to me.

"That would be great. " i say.

So he gets up and heads downstairs.  I start to fall back asleep when Ben comes in.

"DID HE SLEEP WITH YOU? " Ben screams.

"Relax Ben nothing happened. He just asked me out yesterday. " i say.

since mom is away for the week and dad is in France,  we've got the week to ourselves.

Ben is a tall skinny brunette with green eyes.  He's always cared for me. He walks out stomping his feet like a grumpy five year old.

I was about to get up and get ready for breakfast, when Cole walks in with it on a tray.  breakfast in bed.  aww that's sweet.

"I made you breakfast in bed! " he says happily.

"Oh wow thank you it looks amazing! " i say as we share it.

He sits on my bed and i start over thinking things like always.

"hey Cole,  i uhh,  i want to ask you something.  if you truly love me you will do so. " i say shakily as i wonder what he'll say.

"Anything. " he says with a smile.

i squirm uneasily.

"Could you ummm,  take it slow?  I'm sorry I'm being pathetic.  I'm just so miffed that we just became a thing like 48 hours ago.  Do you understand what I'm trying to say? " i say hesitantly.

"Of course. I've known what you were trying to say since we first met. " he says.

What a relief.  And oh the cute things boys say.  So does that mean he knew i liked him? i guess i was kind of obvious,  oh well.

"hey,  so i know how much you like roller coasters, and i got us to monster tickets at kings dominion today. " he says with a grin.

" Oh my god i fucking love you! " i scream and hug him tight.

"i love you too,  ash cake. " he says.

He knows how much i love amusement parks.  This is all so exciting, but something keeps nagging at my brain like a bully. Why is he all of the sudden into me?  I feel like i should be over that by now,  but i feel like its not right.  ya know what i mean?

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