Random Thoughts, Poems, And Other. Some Based On True Stories And Others Are Not

Why Love?! Why?

Why did we have to meet? I would have been fine without you. I wouldn't be thinking about you every second of every day. I wouldn't try to forget about you. I wouldn't be regretting getting to know you. I wouldn't be pondering if I love you or if it is just a big crush. It has almost been 2 years since I saw you. 2 years of not talking to you. I need to get over you but I cant! Why love?! Why.

I met you 5 years ago and I still like you. You have probably forgotten all about me. We used to talk every day. We would laff together and eat food in class. I used to think you liked me too. Why didn't I ask you? Save me all this trouble. But maybe if I did it would be worse. I would be regretting not hanging out with you. Why love?! Why.

I miss the sound of your voice. The sound of your laff. I miss seeing you every day. I miss being teased by you. I miss you asking me how my day is going. And if I was sad or angry or even hurting you would ask very sweetly if I was ok. I miss sharing pretzels with you. I miss the little things about you. And on my card we did in class one day you wrote I was extremely nice and the nicest kid you ever. And how your friend whispers to you if you wrote this one thing that my friend wrote and you hurry and whispered no. I miss you. And I don't know why. I ask again Why love?! Why?

Why do you do this to me? But know we are at different schools. We have been for 2 years. And I still think about you. I hate it! I tried liking someone else and that backfired. I still have that card. I read it when I am sad. That is what the teacher said to do right? But I just read yours.

God, I wish I could see you again just once. Hear your voice. Hear you laff. But at last, I cant. We have parted ways. And although I have thought about running into you and talking to you that will never happen. I guess this is good by.

And one last time I ask Why love?! Why?