Jolby(/Cake) One Shots

Life Goes On

Inspired by: E^st's song "Life goes on"
This is short, sorry!
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Dear Colby,
When I moved into the Trap House I didn't think there would be any problems, but there are. There was something great about him, something that'll never be the same without him. Something that I'll always miss, but I guess that's how it is.

The "him" I'm referring to being you Colby. You have a way of sticking in my mind and never leaving. You're there when I wake up and when I go to sleep, almost all of my decisions are influenced by you, Colby. From what I wear to what I eat, even what colour I die my hair.

We pass each other by and don't share that time for long. The videos we do don't take long, and we hang out sometimes but not nearly as much as I want to. I have to change my mind, the moment ends, and life goes on.

Then you'll find someone else, it starts again, and life goes on. I know I should let you go but I think of you more than you know. You're always with me, I can't get rid of your thought.

It's not like we're a big deal, you're probably going to forget about me. I know you won't love me that way, but you seem happy, I guess I can try to be too, but I can't forget about you.

I think I should let you go, even if I think of you more than you know. You'll find someone, then I know it'll start again, but my life needs to go on. I'm sorry I couldn't tell you in person. I  love you.

-Jake.

As I read the letter I thought of all the looks, the slight touches, and the sighs he gave me. Why am I so blind? I questioned myself, not knowing my own feelings toward Jake.

Do I like him? Kind of. Could I date him? Probably, but it wouldn't be fair to him. Should I tell him I read the letter? Not yet. How should I determine if I like him or not? I guess I'm making a list.

-Do you feel happy around him?
Yes.
-Do you like talking to him?
Of course I do.
-How would you feel if he moved back to Kansas?
I don't think I would know what to feel, I think I'd try to beg him to stay. I'd be extremely sad.
-Are you afraid of being lonely?
I guess, not right now though. That isn't why I want to date him. Wait... I want to date him?

I quickly got up and started pacing my room. I want to date Jake? I mean, I guess I do if I answers yes almost immediately. I didn't even think before saying it really. So I guess that's what I really want.

I put the letter down on my bed and walked over to Jake's room. I don't know what I'm going to do when I get there, but I hope it's okay.

Jake won't tell me this is a prank will he? Oh god, we're in a prank war right now... What if this is a prank? What if I tell him that I like him back and he tells me that it's a prank and that there's a camera in my room and ones hidden in his?

I force myself to stop worrying and knock on Jakes door. As soon as Jake answers, his eyes go wide and he takes a step back into his room muttering a "come in" in a quiet voice. Cute.

As soon as I stepped into the room I closed the door then attacked Jake in a big hug. Neither of us said a word as we stood in the middle of his room hugging.

"I guess you read the letter." He mumbled into my neck. "I did." I answered pulling him closer to myself. "And you aren't freaked out or anything?" His voice was quite, almost scared. "Of course I wouldn't freak out."

Pulling back from the hug slightly I looked into Jakes eyes as I said my next words. "I think of you more than you know too. I don't want to find anyone else either, Jake."

He looked utterly shocked for a few seconds before his smile grew and he pulled me back into a tight hug, sighing.

"I love you, Jake."

"I love you too, Colby."