I'd rather you see
me acting and hiding
than have you see
my soul in tears.
My eyes, scarlet
and scared.
My body, weak
and invisible.
My soul, lost
and tired.
I'd rather you see
me red than blue.
My words, angry
and forceful
than silent
and speechless
I'd rather you see
me hurt than hurt.
My heart, guarded
than opened.
My tears, held back
than cry.
I'd rather you loved
Amen more to see
my hope, ruined
and rusted.
My life, wasted
and wanting.
My passion, fading
and dying.
My soul in hiding,
lost and hoping.
