His Mental Illness (Slowly Editing)

Trepidation and Astonishment Chapter 20

"I prayed to the Lord and He answered me. He freed me from all my fears. Those who took to him for help will be radiant with joy; no shadow of shame will darken their faces. In my desperation I prayed, and The Lord listened; he saved me from all my troubles. For the angel of the Lord is a gaurd; he surrounds and defends all who fear him"

                                 -Psalm 34:4-7 (NLT)

Aaron's Pov

I stared at the ceiling while I was laying on the prison bed not saying a word.

I miss Melody so much...My heart aches just thinking about her laugh, her smile, her eyes, and her lips. I just wish this never happened...I literally want to kill myself right now...Im so broken inside...I really don't know what to feel anymore..

To be honest, Ever since I came here...I couldn't sleep...I refused to eat...Im so depressed and I think i have insomnia...The last time I sleep was days ago and had a horrible nightmare about Melody dead. But It is true that she's dead... My body feels so weak...I have no strength in me any more....I want to die...I want to see Melody so badily...My heart aches just thinking about it...I miss her so much...No tears can come out at all..I used all my tears...I can't cry anymore..No matter how hard I try...

I miss alot of people...Sunny...My Aunt...My family...Meadow....

I just wish my life was amazing. No drama, No demons...Just normal like the other kids...but No...I have to deal with this dreadful pain...

All of a sudden, I heard the cell bars moving vertically to the right. I seen a police man with a serious expression.

"Tomorrow...You are going to the funeral of Melody...You see the pains on those people's faces of what u had done...You insane cold heartless monster..", The police man started to say looking at me with a hint of rage in his eyes and walked away locking the cell bars.

"Tomorrow...", I repeated in a whisper tone.

I got up from the prison bed and looked at the small window that is high above the wall. Sooner...I'll see u Melody...Sooner...I finally start to cry going on my knees putting my hands on the cold hard floor seeing drops of my tears on the floor.

2 minutes later, I got up and went on the prison bed laying there with tears running down my cheeks. I know I'm suffering and I know my heart is dieing..

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I woke up to the sound of birds chirping and I seen a police woman crossing her arms.

"Finally u up...It's time for u to go to the funeral..", The police woman started to say rolling her eyes at me waiting impatiently for me to get up.

I got up from laying on the prison bed and We walked out saying no word.

The police man and woman pushed me forcibly to the back seat of the vehicle and slammed the door. The police man went in the driver's seat and The police woman went in the passenger's seat. He starts to drive away from the police department.

10 minutes later, I seen a funeral home with lots of different types of cars in the parking lot. Parked infront of the funeral home. The police woman opened the door for me and I politely say"Thank u."