XXIV. Tell Me No
Your heart is empty
i couldnt blame you, i blame myself ,i blame me
your silence kills me, killing me numbly
you always see me crying and that's okay
little did you know it was my heart crying
and that's what im trying to say
i want to start again
to live, to like and to love without pain
but love without getting hurt?that's not existent
feels like i have to endure pain before love reigns
i thought were getting closer
closer in what?in where?over the phone forever?
i'm pathetic every freaking second i look at you from afar
a distance i could reach but couldnt feel without
a goodbye
everytime i close my eyes , i found you there
i want to close my heart ,to find you and look you there
but that's not possible because you're inside someone else's heart now
what do i do now?
wait for you or wait for me to let you go?
set you free or set my feelings free because i love you so?
how can i not choose myself between myself and mistake?
why am torn between myself and a mistake?
swimming into the depths of one-sided love ,
drowning in this toxic love
sinking in this ceaselessly painful love
i've given you everything i could
but not everything i should
space, i should've given you space so you could think of the best for you
and the best for you was supposed to be me
but what happened?
i was desperate for answers
i was hungry for love
i was dying for your attention , these got me crazy
i wish you have shooed me earlier
i wish you have slapped me in the face
of the truth i cant bear
if would be better than me suffering from extreme happines
to extreme sadness that is tearing me apart every single day of wanting
you and me
it damn hurt to love hard
To people who cannot love you back
they say never is a different forever
but see? we can have forever
forever undefined , forever we will never be
and that is meant not to be
I want to give it up ,my heart
Because my feelings are futile
These feelings are for someone else I know , I just couldn't accept it , I know
But please tell me ,I want to hear it , tell me I shouldn't,
Tell me no
