The Broken Promise

Chapter 5: the suicide attempt.

Lilani P.O.V.

*A year after Zayn Left*

so here I am walking the streets of Bradford. As im walking to the nearest corner store im thinking to myself, I want to go to college. So im thinking I should go to London for college. I need to get my life straight again and forget about him. Man I wish that was me. their so cute together. I thought as I passed a cute couple. 

5 minutes later

Ugh I need a car. I have so many groceries. Luckaly I have my mums car. She walked to work today because she felt "fat". My mum is skinny and beautiful. I have my license but not a car. erg. Oh I almost forgot to get the Dailey news paper. I run back and purchase the News paper.

At home

I unlock my front door and walk inside my house. I put my keys on the hanger and start to put the groceries away in the kitchen. After im done with that I make myself a bowl of cereal.

Lets check out yhe newspaper I thought to myself.

adds, adds, more adds.Finally some news. I read aloud,

Hometown pop star ingaged?!?!?

I thought to myself. man this must be interesting.so I continue reading.

Yes its true! Hometown Zayn Malik is ingaged to pop star Pierre Edwards from the famous band Little Mix! We wish you luck Zayn! And a happy Marriage!  From all of us in your hometown, Bradford.

OH.MY.GOD! THIS CANT BE HAPPENING!  WHY?!?!* WHY WOULD HE DO THIS?!  I started sobbing.

He like litterly broke up with me to date her the next day and now their ingaged!  Wow. I hate myself. im so ugly, fat, rude and a whole lot of other stuff. I love him! I love him so much and he loves somebody else! I wish I was good enough. I wish I was her. So I grab the keys to my mums car and start running to it screaming, yelling, sobbing... I get out of the car and I drive. I drive fast. Little did I know this wave of guilt, pain, hurt, was going to wash over me. I write a note. This note that would change my life.forever. I started driving faster, and fasts until I couldn't drive anymore and I swerve. I swerve right into a tree. Hoping that it would kill me. Hoping it would end my miserable life. Hope that it would make Zayn feel guilty. Make Zayn have to live a life like I did. Full of misery. I know that's wrong, but he put me through a lot and I hope he feels yhe same way I did sense that day he left. Goodbye world. Goodbye Zayn, Mum, Dad, and my friends, I love you all. I loved you Zayn so much and I still do, I thought as my whole world went black. I was gone, and I was happy.