A Thousand Hearts (AkuRoku fanfic)

Chapter 1- Feelings

I woke up, startled by the presence of my friend sitting on my desk.

"Good morning, sleepyhead!" He said with a laugh.

"Axel, what are you doing in my room? Were you watching me sleep?! You creep!!"

His face turned red.

"No, I came in to check on you. I had a dream where you were killed, and so I rushed in here to check that you were still alive. I was worried, you see."

"Don't be stupid," I scoffed. "We're Nobodies. We can't worry. We don't have hearts."

My friend looked down at me, with a sad look on his face. "There are some things that don't need a heart to be felt, buddy."

"Like?" I questioned.

"Like.... Oh, never mind. We should probably set off on our missions now. I'll talk to you later, at the clock tower."

"Oh.... Okay. See ya."

I was curious as to why he'd suddenly stopped the conversation. I was about to leave when I got a message from Xion.

'Roxas,

I won't be there for ice cream today. I have a really bad cold and Saïx ordered me to stay here until I'm better. I'm sorry, I really am."

It sounds mean, but I was actually kinda glad that Xion wouldn't be there. Because, well, there was something I felt I had to say to Axel before our time ran out, and I didn't exactly want to say it with Xion around. It would just be too embarrassing. You see, I've been holding something in for a few months now, and it's getting harder to control. I guess Axel was right. Nobodies can still feel.

I set off on my mission, which was just killing Heartless in Twilight Town. But as much as I should've had my fighting technique on my mind, there was only one thing on my mind.

Him.

Him and the way he styles his hair. His sarcastic attitude. The way he seems to care about me. I guess... Wait no. There's no guessing about it. I was absolutely sure how I felt about him. I loved him, I knew that much. But he was my best friend. And I wasn't good enough to ever be anything more than a friend to him. I was way out of his league. I was just a little boy that he'd got paired up with on my first day. He hated babysitting, as he called it. Now I look back on that and I feel so guilty. Maybe he would be happier if I wasn't here. Maybe...

Finally, my mission was complete, so I set off for the clock tower.

And I was the only one there.

It was ten minutes after our usual time to meet, and I started feeling sad. 'Maybe I am just a waste of time for him,' I thought.

I started to cry. I never thought that Nobodies could cry, but the tears flooding my face were as real as the cement as I was sitting on. Suddenly I heard a voice.

"Hey, Ro- why are you crying?" It was Axel.

I turned my back on him. "It's nothing. I'm fine."

He put his arm on my shoulder. "It's not nothing. I know you, Roxas. I've never seen you in this much pain before. I know that something's wrong. I can tell."

I couldn't take it anymore, so I got up and began to walk away.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"Nowhere, okay?"

He sighed. "Just tell me where you're going."

I felt a new tidal wave of tears roll down my face. "I'm going to make you happy, alright?! I'm going where no one will ever see me again. I know I'm just a waste of everyone's time, so I'm going away from here. Forever. Goodbye, Axel." And then I collapsed before I could take another step.

I felt arms around me, holding me tight.

"Roxas..." Axel said. "You're not a waste of time. You could never be. I don't know what I would do or who I would be without you. What even brought this on?"

"I was just thinking about how I could never be good enough for you. I've been like this all day." I admitted.

What happened next surprised me.

His warm lips connected with mine, and I suddenly felt calm.

"Does this prove that you're more than good enough for me?" He asked.

"Axel, I- never mind."

His face lit up with curiosity. "What were you going to say? It's just us here. You can tell me."

"Just... Don't judge me for this, okay?"

He waited.

I looked down at the ground. "I... I love you. I have since we met. I'm sorry."

"Oh, thank god!" He said, obviously happy about something.

"What?"

"I thought this would never happen. I'm so glad you feel that way, Roxas."

"Why?" I was kinda confused.

"Because. I love you too. That's what I was gonna talk to you about tonight, but you beat me to it, huh?"

We RTC'd and saw Xion waiting for me outside my room.

"Hey, you guys!"

"Sup, Xion?" Axel said smoothly. God, he really was going to be the death of me if he kept this up.

"Roxas, are you alright?" Xion asked.

"Uh, yeah. Why?"

She giggled like a child. "Because I don't think I've ever seen you smiling this much."

Axel looked at her. "He'll be smiling even more in a few seconds."

"Hmm?" Xion said, obviously curious.

Axel took my hands in his. "Roxas... Would you please, um... Be mine?"

I was shocked, so I couldn't exactly speak properly. "Uh... Yes?" I managed to say.

"Brilliant." Axel said.

"Oh my god, you guys!!" Xion squealed. "You don't know how long everyone in Organization XIII's been waiting for this!"

I stopped abruptly. "What did you just say?"

"Silly," she said. "Ever since you came along, we've all been expecting this to happen."

"So, it finally happened." Said Xigbar, who happened to be walking past at the time. "Good job, you guys!"

"Oh god..." I felt my face going red. "I'm gonna go to my room now."

"Goodnight, Roxas!"'said Xion. "Keep it quiet, you two."'she winked at a Axel and I.

Did she just go there...? I thought she was so innocent until now.