My Life Isn't Perfect. A Janoskian Story.

Chapter Three

Amanda's pov;

Holy shit, Luke & I are alone. I should be used to being with one of the boys alone, but I've developed strong feelings for Luke.

"So Amanda, how's home?"

"The same as it's usual been. Shitty." I tried to smile

"You know that your always welcomed here, you know that right?"

"Yeah, I know."

"Anyways, what are we gonna do since everyone's gone?"

I felt so uncomfortable talking about my home.

"Well there's something I kinda wanted to tell you." Luke said as he looked down and blushed.

"What is it?" Picking his head up as I asked.

"Well I kinda..... Umm... Well I don't know how to put this... So I'll just show you instead." He got up and grabbed my hand. "let's go."

I got up and he took me outside. What was going on? I felt so nervous. I didn't know how else to react, so I just let him take me outside. I couldn't get over the fact that he grabbed my hand.

Luke's pov;

When we got outside of the house, I led her to the back where the pool was. I was still holding her hand. I took her over to the pool and we sat along the edge.

"Well what is it that you wanted to tell me, Luke?"

Gosh, I was so nervous.

I looked her right in the eyes, I moved my face closer and closer to hers until I finally kissed her.

Amanda's pov;

Luke is kissing me! His lips are so soft and the feeling of his cold lip ring made it even better.

Wait, back up. Does this mean Luke likes me? Or is the alcohol getting to him? But now that I think of it, he barely drank anything.

When he pulled away, I didn't know what to say. I was still quite shocked over the fact we just kissed.

Finally he said, "Amanda, I've liked you for the longest time! You're prefect in everyday possible. I'm sorry if you don't feel the same way, but can we still be friends?"

I didn't say anything. I just smiled like an idiot. Then I grabbed his face and pulled him in and kissed him.

Luke's pov;

Am I dreaming or something? Amanda is actually kissing me!

"So does this mean you feel the same?"

She laughed, "Of course, it does silly!"

"Amanda, will you be my girlfriend?"

"Yes, I will be your girlfriend."

We smiled at each other and kissed again.

I can't believe this right now! Amanda is actually mine. I should've done this a long time ago.

Amanda's pov;

We sat their at the side of the pool, talking about how much we liked each other. But eventually, I had to go home. We said out goodbyes and I left. My house wasn't that far from the Brooks residence, so I walked home.

It was about 10 pm when I got home. When I got home, there was a huge surprise for me. My parents had been drinking again, just great. I could smell the alcohol. Then I saw both my parents standing right in front of me. They looked pissed off.

"Where the fuck have you been? My dad growled at me.

"Just at a friends. Not that you care!" I tried to get passed them and go to my room, but nope. My mom grabbed my arm and threw me to the ground. Then my dad got on top of me and started beating me. I got multiple punches to the face, I could feel the blood trickling from my nose. My dad got off of me, then it was my moms turn. She started kicking me in the stomach. I felt sharp pain with every kick. Then they smiled and went to bed. Fucking pricks.

I got up off the floor, and ran to my bedroom. When I looked in the mirror, I saw an ugly bruised girl. Why does this have to happen to me? Why can't my parents be normal?

I grabbed some clean clothes and decided to have a shower. Feeling the warm water on my skin, made it feel a little better. But I was still hurting.

Once I got out of the shower, I wrapped a towel around my hair and my body. I dried my body off and put on a baggy shirt and some shorts. I started putting lotion on my legs, arms and face. When I put lotion on my arms, I felt my arms clean. No cuts or burns. At that moment, I felt an itch on my arms. I looked through my drawers and found a blade. I actually thought about it this time. What if Luke finds out or the rest of the boys? But I deserve this!

I took that cold shinny blade and placed it on my wrist. Taking a deep breath, I pushed down on it. A few seconds later, I saw the blood coming out. A few cuts here and there. I patted my arms with a cloth until they stopped bleeding. After they stopped bleeding, I changed into a long sleeved shirt rather than a short sleeve.

Climbing into bed, I laid there. I thought of everything I fucked up in life. I ended up crying myself to sleep that night.