I wake up to the sounds of the Tokyo roads slowly starting to buzz with life, cars, taxis, bikes, motorcycles and swarms of people moving through their day. I check my bedside clock, nine AM. I lazily roll over, hoping I won't have to face another day, and stare at my succulents like they will tell me the answer to life.
I sit up in my extremely warm and comfy bed, and check my messages. Still nothing from Josh. Anxious thoughts fill my body. The silence of our message conversation is deafening. I can't take it. My eyes are swelling, I can't get like this, I tell my self, not today.
I roll out of bed like an absolute pancake, and picture all of those morning routine videos on YouTube. I cringe at the generic
"I like to make my bed as soon as I get up so that I won't want to get back in it" quote and leave my bed as messy as ever. Sheets, soft toys and books everywhere.
Tomorrow will be the first day of my second year in high school. This is the year we have to start picking clubs and subjects. Crap. I haven't thought any of it through, my mind buzzes again with anxious thoughts, and I notice that I'm experiencing my personal favourite: the what if thoughts.
Geez. I really don't need them, but no matter how hard I try they keep swarming back into my head. As I sit at the kitchen table, feeling anxious and scared, my phone buzzes.
Ritsu: Hey Sar. Are you prepared for tomorrow? I'm so excited to try for the tennis club 😄
Sarah: Not at all. Can't stop thinking about it. I don't know which club to pick.
Ritsu: Awe shame. I really wanna try out for one of the idol bands but ik I won't get in 😭. I suck at singing and can't play music. U know that.
Sarah: neither can I. Gtg, I'll talk later.
<Sarah has left the chat>
Despite what I've told Ritsu, I can actually sing well, but I don't want to make that a public fact, more social problems then.
Ritsu is, well she's Ritsu. She's fun to be around, but she is a total extrovert; the opposite of me. I just hope I'm prepared to be half drained by her tomorrow.
Hey guys. Hope you liked the first chapter. This story is kinda personal to me so I hope that it connects with you. Anyways I'm having so much fun writing it. I'll see ya next chapter!
