Secrets that drifted us apart?//Clinton Cave//Chase Atlantic[DISCONTINUED]

Spacing Out

So let's start from the beginning I guess..

So my name is Clinton Cave I'm 20 years old and I'm from Australia, but we moved.

When I mean ''we'' I mean me, my brother Mitchel and his best friend Christian or Kras. We moved to LA, because we wanted to pursue our music career. We formed a band a few years ago called 'Chase Atlantic'. I Love to see my friends happy and of course my brother, they love to play and sing and I'm happy for them, but lately I have been having nightmares more often, I have been upset more often than I used to be it's hard when no one knows what's going on in my head I can only say that yeah I'm fine don't worry, but when in reality I'm screaming for help, I'm trying to go a little easy on myself but I know that I can't that with the secret that I got, I will dig myself a grave, I will suffocate with those thoughts and it kills me.. I don't think they know, I hope they don't, I hope my girlfriend Cassie doesn't know..

People think that if we're in a band then we're happy, we only want to fuck around and have fun, when actually we're seeking love and affection.. We just numb it with prescription drugs or alcohol something that will numb it something that will decrease the pain.. I know you probably think like ' what kind of nonsense is he talking, they're rockstars they don't have problems they don't need love or anything else. They have a perfect life' well, you are very wrong.

You think that we have a lot of time to spare, but no, we are always in the studio working our asses off.. For example like right now Mitchel is working on a melody and writing lyrics to the demo beat while Kras will help more with the instrumentals and some song logic then they pass it to me so I can arrange the melody more and put more instrumentals like lead guitar and saxophone, and work on some lyrics too. Then we put together the vocals and record it. Yeah, there is more work than I told you, but now we're listening again to the finished product that we wrote and produced the song is called ''now''.

I felt a light tap on my shoulder. I looked who was nudging me, I looked up and I saw that it was Mitchel and Kras. Mitchel spoke first ' what's on your mind lately? Is everything ok?' he looked worried. When I was about to speak Kras butted in 'you space out a lot now. Is everything ok? Or is it something with Cassie and don't lie' he chuckled a bit. 'Y-yeah e-everything's fine, and me and Cassie I'm not quite sure what's going on.' I stuttered a bit and looked down ashamed, I ignored her for the past three days. 'how long was I spacing out?' I asked 'for quite some time, but it's ok, don't worry' he smiled. Then I texted Jesse that he won't tell Cassie where I am.

Few hours have gone by and we finally came back home. I checked my phone and it read 3:25am I won't lie I was pretty tired, but Jessie Boyle, our drummer came to us and told us that Cassie....

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