He woke up on his side of the bed, the alarm clock went off after he snoozed it for the second time of the day. Sighing he felt tired, he felt gloomy and the sky giving him sympathy as the clouds were in shade of dark grey, rain started to pour out like how his tears did when she left.
He stared at the ceiling, it was cold as usual with the weather and all. It had been three months since they last saw eachother, when she stepped out of his bedroom door with her suitcase and with a heavy heart. She had to end it, it was getting to the point she questioned him about their relationship, they were not working on things anymore than they should be. He turned away from his side, to her side of the bed he touched the sheet it was cold and empty, sighing he got up and made himself breakfast.
Mornings with the rain made him feel like he was not alone, he stared at her coffee mug, it was untouched at the kitchen counter. The Princess Leia chibi with a bubble head saying "I love you " with some scarring stared back at him, he felt himself tearing up, they used to have hot chocolate together when it rains and cold, he remembered the way she look up at him from her cup and her eyes shined brighter than the sun and stars combined.
" You make the best hot cocoa in the world Calum " she giggled like a kid, he smiled nodding.
" You wouldn't find someone else like me Eris " she shook her head as she walked towards him and peck his cheeks.
" You're a once in a lifetime moment Calum, and I swear I wouldn't chase or wait for other moments to come, because you already came around. "
Sniffing he groaned as he wiped the tear from his face, he can't stop thinking about her and her words. It stung his heart over and over again as he drown his cup of strong coffee to get forward for today. He took a bath, got dressed and looked at the empty house one more time before sighing then locked the door.
He spent his day talking to his band mates, strumming his bass guitar, writing some songs. They were penning their fifth song already, feeling empty and lost he wrote down his thoughts. He would distract himself, and he pretends to be okay infront of people but all he wanted to do was spend his days with her.
Driving back to his house he bid goodbye to Ashton as he became the driver for them today. He was all smiles as they all pat him on the back, walking away he opened his front door.
" You're home ! " she had a big grin on her face.
" Nice shirt you got there lady, did you know I love bands ? " Calum smirked as he chase her around the house being a tease wearing only his oversized Led Zeppelin shirt.
Instead he looked at the empty and dark house, opening the lights he muttered a curse as he saw his bills. Picking them up he went through them, he knew the count of his bills, but he was still expecting the handwritten letters she used to mail him. Throwing it at the table he removed his shoes. Another night in the sofa as he get himself drunk, he watched one of her favorite tim burton movies.
" I used to do this song in my bedroom, I dance like Emily " she says as she glances at him.
" Can you do it now ? " Calum challenged he knew she likes challenges alcohol brings the confidence out of her.
She stood up, she dimmed the lights and put the saved soundtrack of the scene, Calum grinned like a kid rolling his eyes as she copied the steps Emily did on the moonlight dance.
" I'm in love with a corpse bride then. " Calum said as he kissed her fully on the lips as she giggled.
He stared at the place that she they both used to dance on as it had the small lighting thing going on, he smiled sadly then he blinked his eyes trying to resist the tears that was starting to form. He hiccuped then groaned as a small sob escaped his lips.
" I can't deal with you being like this Calum ! I've got my own life ! " she shouted at him as she stood up from the sofa.
" I just asked you to stop doing those kinds of photoshoots is that too much to ask for Eris !? " He looked at her, shaking her head.
" Why would you ask me to stop when it's the only thing I care about and I love doing it ! " She screamed crossing her arms as she glared at him, some tears were brimming on her eyes.
He stared at the scene, they fought their lungs out. She cried harder when he said he can't accept her job. She thumped her foot, pushing him out of the way as she went to the kitchen washing her tear stained face. They continued to argue, some plates crashed through the floor, it went as a cycle for the last remaining nights they were together. And one day she stopped, she snapped out of the relationship.
Next thing he knew she was packing her things, had suitcases ready. He begged for chances, but she stood her ground firmly.
" We're too young and too dumb to be in love Calum, I'm sorry. But I don't think this is what Love is. I can't live with you controlling everything. I'm not a puppet I'm a person, all I wanted your support like how I do for you. " she held her breathe deeply a sob escaping her lips.
" Please Eris, I love you don't do this. " he stopped himself from shaking as he held her hand tightly.
" I can't do this anymore. It's for the best. I love you so much Calum. I really do but we can't be like this. " she looked at him with her big eyes he adored.
Tears filled their eyes and rolled down to their cheeks, only the sound of their whimpers and sobs were heard in the room, she wrapped her arms around him, kissing him one last time.
The kissed last shortly as she heard the honk of the uber she rented. Her back against his chest she pulled away and went without another word, leaving with his heart pinned up on her sleeve. He knelt down on the floor tears fell to the ground, he shouted her name many times hoping she comes back but she didn't.
Staring at the empty space he snapped out of the flashbacks looking at the clock, it was past 2 and he sighed turned the television off then went back to his bed, looking at her side of the bed, his led zepplin shirt on top of her pillow, and the truth came creeping in once again. Feeling the empty feeling, empty heart and making him cry to sleep for his 94th day without her.
A/N:Italicized means flashbacks. And thank you to penguinlukex for the cover hehe so much love ❤️
