I want you, I need you but I can't love you

Eveyone else

I like him......... but that doesn't even matter. He is just like everyone else , hurtful. He will tear me down and leave me without a second thought. Even if I try to convince myself he is different there would be no point , I would only be proving my self wrong in the end anyways.
Everyone is the same. They all hurt you and abandon you at some point....... so why should I trust them?.

I can hear my shoes crunching against this cold snow. The wind is making my hair dance and knot. Everyone is normal here , everyone is ok , everyone can trust at least one person here. Except for me , I wonder if the reason I can't trust them is because of dad. Because he too just like all those other people left me , tore me apart and was able to be normal again , just like everyone else....

I can hear the sound of the swing screeching back and fourth while little children laugh , sometimes I hear them speaking of how they will have kids and be married in the future. That kind of talk makes me sad , I am too afraid to get married. Mariage will break me even more.

I like him and I want him but there is no way I am ever going to love him...... or at least that's what I'm telling myself.

A/n: not really sure about this story line ,I may continue depending on how well it does. This chapter is not giving a lot of info about the story simply because it is a "tester" chapter if you will.