Today i had thoughts of self hatred . I've messed up so much that everything around me seems to fall apart as i touch it. Even my small gentle touch can make the best fall apart . All my thoughts have finally consumed my hope and turned it into darkness . I have feared this day would come and so i had prepared the bottle of Xanax to take in this time . Drugs are bad but i don't really care about anything anymore . I gave up my soul to these drugs and i started living reckless with one less fuck to give . Im just really done with the bullshit people give me , its just fucking stupid . Im fucking stupid .
i want it to all end .
And it will .
soon .
