Dancing on Achilles Heels BxB (Staten Krown)

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My mind is strolling at this point. I'm furious. I'm beyond furious. I have Desta's stuff. I bring them to school the next day and he's standing at his locker. I can't face him. Not yet. I can't have a conversation with him in the way I want to. He's standing there and I have his bags. I know it's dramatic but I can't help it. I just drop his bags right in front of him. I slam them on the goddam ground as hard as I can.

"Here."

"I was waiting up for you last night," Desta states, "Where were you?

I can't talk to him right now. Right now I can't even look at him. My heart is beating so fast. This is what heartbreak feels like. I was willing to give this boy a part of me that I had closed up for so long and this is what he did to me.

I just walk away.

Desta chases me halfway down the hallway.

"Baby, wait...what's wrong?"

He was calling me baby. It was the first time that he'd called me that. Hearing the words makes this shit hurt even more. I want to confront him but I know what happened the last time my words came out. The crazy thing is I think I still fucking loved him. The crazy thing is I still wanted to be with him even after I found out that he was cheating on me with Prince.

The thing is that I still didn't want to risk my relationship with Desta because I had gotten so used to being treated like shit by Matias that someone else cheating on me at this moment just wasn't a big deal.

"You know what?" I start, "Nothing. Nothing's wrong."

"You just walked away from me..."

"We're late for dance practice."

I'm trying to sweep it all under the rug. I still can't look at him though. I don't want to break out into tears like a little bitch. I just thought he was different. I know that if I say anything to him about Prince, I'd end up blowing up. I knew my temper. He'd be scared of me. He'd hate me forever. It was best to just bite my tongue at least for now. It was best to just pretend like everything was OK.

"What we talked about yesterday? Did you mean it?" I ask, "About being my boyfriend. If this is something you don't want."

"I want it more than anything."

I knew I should have walked away. I knew I should have put myself first and not let a man have this control over me but the truth was I cared more about Desta already then I had ever cared about Matias. Maybe I was just a fucking sucker for love.

Or maybe Desta was just my Achilles' heel.

Because I find myself smiling at him like an idiot. I find myself making a dumb joke like an idiot to make him feel comfortable. We walk to practice together and when we get down a hall that is all dark I give him a kiss hard on the lips.

"I still want this too," I tell him after the kiss, "I still want this too..."

I'd just have to put my pain away at least for now.

~

"Are you feeling OK?" Rosa asks.

Days have passed since I found out about Desta. I'm trying to put up this front but it seems like there is one person who can see right through it. Rosa. We're at dance practice at this point. Ana is going over a dance routine that Portia is doing in the contest. It was a big deal. We were all entered but this was a single's routine. Only one person could win.

I'm sitting in the bleachers. I just changed. Everyone is getting ready for this dance competition that is coming up. It's quite the big deal.