Her Voice

Ch. 10 Hold On

Please listen to song during chapter.
Song: Hold On by Extreme Music

Shelby's P.O.V

I wake up with my hand tied behind my back and I'm sitting on a chair. I feel like crying.

I look up to see Ryder smiling down at me.

"So here's how it's going to be. We are going to date. That includes going on dates, acting like a couple in school, no seeing other people, and of coarse having se" I cut him off.

"NO! I will never have sex with you," I spat in his face.

He punches me. "And you'll never tell anyone about this. All they know is that we're a happy couple." He explains "got it?"

I stare at him in disgust and spit in his face. He punches me again.

"I wasn't going to do this yet but I think you need it." He says. He grabs me and carries me out of the room and goes in a room I assume is his bedroom and throws me on the bed.

Oh no!

I struggle against him but he takes the rope and tie me to the bed post to give him better access. The rest of the consists with my struggles, my sobs, and his pants.

~The Next Day~

I didn't sleep at all last night he kept waking me up. I'm officially depressed. I hate him.

I haven't stopped crying. I haven't stopped wishing for someone to hear me when I yell for help. No one came.

I look at the clock and it's 7:34.

I feel Ryder moving next to me and I hear him say "call your mom and make sure to tell her that you'll be staying at a friends house and you'll be back tomorrow and don't tell her anything about this."

I nod and do what he says.

To be honest I'm petrified of him. He's hit me and raped me.

I get up from the bed and get dress and grabbed my phone.

I find my moms contact and pressed the call button and she answered right away.

"Hey honey," she answered. You see she's trying to be a better mom for me.

"Hey mom, I just wanted to tell you that I'm staying at Bees till tomorrow," I say.

"Ok honey. Just text or call if you need anything."

"I will" I replied. We said our goodbyes and hanged up.

I look at Ryder who went back to sleep. I sigh and walk into the bathroom and looked in the mirror to see a broken girl looking back at me with a bruised face and dull eyes.

This is not me. I see tears streaming down my face. I want to scream. I want to cry.

~Monday~

The weekend with Ryder was horrible. He kept hitting me and making me do it with him.

I hate it. I hate him.

I had to put extra concealer on my face this morning so no suspects a thing.

When I got home from his house Ryder wanted me to tell my mom about him being such a 'nice' boyfriend. So she knows all about him besides the abuse of coarse. She is also really supportive of our relationship and doesn't suspect a thing.

She can't see her own daughter using her eyes to cry out for help.

Right now I'm eating lunch in the lunch room sitting next to Ryder. He made me get a salad saying that I'm already fat as it is.

Did I tell you I hate him?

I feel like I lost a part of myself. Maybe it's because I am acting different. I don't talk anymore, I don't answer questions during class, I don't sit with my friends, I'm not eating normally, and I'm not talking to myself like I normally. And it's all because of him. Teachers are actually getting worried I am not talking like my normal bubbly self which I've been ever since I got my voice back. Oh and my friends are starting to question me. Will every so often looks at me hurt.

I don't understand.

Britt is actually leaving me alone. Graser and Liam have done nothing but sent looks at me.

This is my life now.