How I meet the Wolverine?...

Jeans memories or his conscience

Melanie'!..........
Logan!
Where are you?
Here....
Where?
Closer to you.....
I'm just panting having another memory another nightmare. Turning and look at her but the one I was hoping see, she's not next to me.
Where were you?......Jean ask lying next to me
Nagasaki......I said barely breathing confused
That far back?.....Jean said. I'm just sitting looking at her.
Your here!.....I ask confused
Off course but you still calling for her....Jean said reading my face
Can you stay!.....I ask her
You know I can't.....Jean said smiling sad
Jean, I'm so sorry. I'll never hurt you or anyone ever again. I made a vow.....I said really guilty. Jean lowing on my ear.
It's to late.......
I look down and see my claws inside her body......
No.....no........please.....I said retracting my claws and trying to stop the bleeding.
You can't hide.........
Opening my eyes tensed and gasping look around me no Jean, no Melanie. I'm still in the same place....far from her...

Melanie.....
If I keep having dreams like this. I'm gonna end it crazy. Stretching my body and look at the window is not even 6o clock not even closer. Is already one year for me still like yesterday.
Great......I said lying back not happy taking the sheets away brush my teeth my hair change and do what I always do.
Preparing a cup of coffee walk at his desk sitting and check the students paper work.
I'm late again......
Moving my papers down and look at him resting against the door taking the papers back and reading
I should be calling the police for trespassing but I know I'm waisting my time.....I said smiling taking my cup drinking.
I saw the light and I knew it was you. So I said lets surprised her and here I'm.....
Punctual like always......I said exhaling looking at him
What are you really doing here?.....I ask leaving the paper the desk taking my cup walk and sitting at the sofa watching sitting next to me.
To see you. What reason I need?......
This is a school and right now is full of mutants just like me. You signed you own sentence.....Yashida.....I said drinking.
I love how my name sound on your lips.... Yashida said next to me
I can used for cursing you too.....I said smiling
How long you gonna keep me waiting?....Yashida ask me seriously
We are friends......I said avoiding his eyes
You know I want to be more than friends. Is already, what? a year?. I don't mind wait but I need some answer.....Yashida said concern. I'm just smile leaving my cup and look at him.
Just for once. I don't want meet people who is related to him like you......I said tired
I know what you gonna said. I heard that story so many times. Thank God his not my father....Yashida said lying back his head thinking.
You know if your not leaving your guards gonna be here any minute like in 20......I said looking at the clock
You never fail........Yashida ask looking at me
No, since I was born mutant.....I said watching him straight up and walk at the door suddenly stop turning looking at me
Clock ticking......I said pointed on my wrist.
You really making all so difficult....Yashida said frustrated
Yes, 8 o clock tomorrow. You can pick me up..... Happy......I said taking my cup and drinking back
I hate it when you read my thoughts......Yashida said walk at me lowing brushing his lips in my forehead turning and literally disappeared. I'm just looking at the door until I couldn't sense him no more and drink my coffe.
Get used to.....bye

Yashida.....
I'm walking inside our house taking my shoes and goes to my room avoiding any trouble.
Master Yashida.......
I'm just look at him seriously making him step back.
Your mother wants to see you.......
I'm just clench my jaw tensed...
Great......I said following the guard standing at her door knock and waiting for opening. The door opening slowly and reveal a glowing concern not happy face. I'm just kneeling lowing my head.
Mother......I simple said tensed straight myself but keep myself away
You leave this house again....mom said gardening her flowers. I didn't answer her back
What her name?......mom ask stopping was she's doing looking at me.
Melanie......I simple said but her face look like she hear that name before.
She knows what you are?......mom ask sitting looking at me
Yes......I simple said
And you gonna keep disobedience just to see her.....mom said checking some papers
I'm just smile lowing my head. She don't need my answer.
I see......mom said looking at me thinking. I'm just waiting for was I never expect to hear. Not from her.
Bring her tomorrow and have dinner with me...us....8 o clock.....

Logan.....
How I can get rid from all this and go back to her. If she would accept me again? If she would believe in me?
Definitely eternity is curse for someone like me. Not having a place that I can really calling home.
Why you keep tortured yourself?.....
Her voice made turning and saw Jean
If you miss her so much. Why your not there with her?....Jean said lying next to me
I can't not feeling like this.......I said
Them you can stay with me.......Jean said moving her fingers across my chest
But you have forget about her.....Jean said looking at me seriously. Just the though of living without her making me wake up gasping trying to breath. Understanding without her .......I can't..

Melanie...
A black knee height dress elegant pencil style with a sexy short v neckline. To much for my taste.
I'm feeling ridiculous......I said looking myself in the mirror.
You looking great......Storm said looking at me.
Remind me what I'm doing this......I said taking the brush and do my hair
Because is time to continue your life Melanie.....Storm said helping me with my hair
I though because I saw it before he ask me. Actually his mom wants to met me.....I said looking for my earrings. Storm look at me strange. I'm just taking my pursed ready. We walk out of the room downstairs to the door.
Are you still?.....Storm didn't finished moving my hand at the handle opening and see Yashida face before he knocks
All the time.......I said smiling to him walking out turning and look at Storm.
Don't wait for me. I have a key just make sure the kids doing good anything call me or link....I said smiling turning and walk next to him.
You look stunning......Yashida said looking at me. I'm just smile stopping at the car door and see him opening the door for me.
Let's just enjoy the moment......okay.....I said getting inside the car and wait for Yashida sit next to me giving the order in Japanese to the driver. Suddenly the sound of thunder and see few drops falling making me smile.
What are you smiling about?......Yashida said taking my hand. I'm just look our hands together notice something the feeling is not the same.
How this night is gonna end.....I said playing with his fingers
How?......he ask me tensed. I'm just look at him for a moment move my hand at his face and smile
Don't worried let's just said according to planning. Relax you already freak me out......I said smiling watching him relaxing moving my hands away and look outside
In the order it supposed to be.....

Logan.......
The sound of raining and see the few droops falling. I didn't move. I can't move. All those memories. All this guilt. I'm just keep moving to one place to another trying to find peace and impossible one.
Something inside of me telling me to go back. All I can sense is pain loneliness. She miss me but I can't handle if she reject me. Already breathing heavily with not pointed on mind or place to hide.
I thought you were done being the hero........
Moving my eyes and see Jane but I didn't answer her back
Just let her go......Jane said smiling sad
I can't .......I said tensed. I can't feel my eyes. My whole body shaking. What's going on?
It's not hard to die.....Jean said looking at me
I can't.......I said now focus on our link.
Them come to me...

Melanie....
To be sincere my heart was pounding faster. My nerves all around and my power you can imagine. I having all this emotions together for no reason but I could link and check but I'm already feeling broken all his are about...Jean.
Where here?......Yashida said taking me back from my though and look of my hands the black smoke
Not now......I said feeling his hands on mine. I look at him like "are you crazy" but his gesture was brushing his lips and smile.
Don't worried your save with me.......
We walk out of the car. I'm just admiring this house,the garden, the few lovely bridges and I can't let out the fountains. This is another world.
I see you like it.....Yashida said reading my face.
You have a wonderful place......I said looking at him. The door opening and see two I guest guard bow down to him....us
Master Yashida.....welcome.....They said taking his things
Miss Xavier....welcome this way......one said taking my things. I'm just look at Yashida.
I'll be with you in a minute...Yashida said smiling leaving my side and walk enter to the right door.
Please.......the lady said. I'm just following her taking my shoes used the ones they provide me and following her. I'm just looking around until the lady stop kneeling opening the door.
You can wait here. There will be with you in a minute....she said bow down. I'm just walk inside and look around the walls the furniture but my eyes goes a the opening door and see a garden inside the house with a perfect view of the raining sky. I'm just resting my back against the wall close my eyes and lost myself with the sound.
You must be Melanie. I presume.......
I'm......I said looking to my right and see that serene face looking at me
Let me introduce myself......
You are Mariko granddaughter of master Yashida wife of Harada the archer mother of Yashida and the boss of Yashida industry and the most bigger boss in all Japan......I simple said bow down respectfully
So you know. Why you are her?.....Mariko said reading my face
Yes.....you want me to marry your son.......