Recuérdame

Gone

I can't sleep

All these thoughts keep swimming around in my head.
Nothing makes sense
Everything is spinning and I can't make it stop.
Too much to do, too much to worry about.

I'm so tired of this pain,
I'm tired of this sadness.
I'm tired of this doubt that I will ever be okay again.
I'm so tired of this place.
I'm tired of this madness.
I just wish it could all go back to how It was before.

We were so happy and in love,
Not a care in the world.
Free to do and be whatever we wanted
But that is gone, and so are you.
Now all I feel is haunted.

You were all I needed in this world
You were my joy, God's gift, my peace of mind,
And all that is left is the ashes;
The evidence it may have existed,
In a dream, or a vision, or a story that is yet to be written.
Our love is forgotten.
There is nothing left.

Memories fade, pictures are burned.
I am weary of this world, this life.
I wait for darkness, sleep, or death to consume me.
I don't know how long I have left.

I've grown into a sadness, that is seen in my eyes.
My bones ache, my heart aches.
How long must I suffer here without love, without reason,
Without the strength to fight anymore?
Without the will to fight, and without hope?
I've seen too much in this life.

Sadness, anger, hopelessness,

Love, peace , joy.

I've been through, and have seen it all.
But even those are gone, and so are you.
And soon, I shall be next.