Late nights and early mornings as lay in the bed mind racing about Jrew his touch kiss sex and just the chemistry we have when around each other it makes no sense but it feels so damn good at this point I don't even know what to do because he is blessed with good dick we could not stop fucking each other and there were days when we felt as if this was going to destroy are friendship sooner or later we had said a couple of times let's just stop this but are dumb asses said well we not doing anything wrong or bad it's just sex and we make each other feel good but at the same time what about old girl your talking to and plus you see a future with this bitch I couldn't keep this going on between us at some point this has got to end and I much as I don't want it to one of us has to be the bigger person but at the same time it looks like it's going to have to be me because I love Jrew with all my heart and I want him to be happy and it would kill me if this continues to go on and neither one of us don't stop this foolishness something that feels so good makes me feel so bad after it's done like I don't even be happy I be worried but in that moment when we fucking it feels so amazing and just so right I hate that I can't help this feeling My mind was just racing and racing heart beating I felt as if life was great but I can't even get Jrew off my mind as if he's glued to my brain like he did some type of voodoo spell on me but what the Hell I don't give two shits at all because let's face it's worth it if I could quit my job and fuck you all day I would but I know I gotta get this money and shit I mean this is crazy I would have never known that this type of stuff would happen to me as I continue to lay there my father comes knocking and open the door as he walk in to see me laying down on my bed as I zoned out my father asked me if I was okay and I told him yes I'm fine but he adds on and says what's going through your head I told him nothing much I'm just thinking right now he told me that he was going over to my grandfather house because he has to drop some money off to him I told him no I'm okay and he shake his head as he closed the door behind him just a few mins after my phone starts to go off twice as I look over to see that Jrew sent me two messages but I didn't looked at them I just continued to just lay there zoned out
