It was just a normal Sunday where I didn't want to be bothered and I'm guessing I'm in one of my moods I really hate feeling like this but I'm stuck between because I don't know what I want anymore like it's crushing me inside because Jrew was just suppose to be a friend and nothing else I can't even believe I'm having sex with him knowing he see and want a future with this girl which he still didn tell me her name or even said her name once and I don't know how serious they are but I feel like the side piece at times but as always the sex feels so good like too good and damn she going to be happy when she finds His dick game is on point but even when I think about it I feel angry inside and very jealous I really don't want nobody to experience that feeling expect for me but I know that's not going to happen because sooner or later this is all going to end I just wish I was stronger enough to walk away but it's too hard it's like walking away from a million dollars I keep telling myself that what if I don't never come across good dick like his never again how would I react because right now I can't even get it together I'm sitting up here thinking heavy about Jrew trying to get out my head for at least a couple of hours because tomorrow is Monday and guess who has to go to work me so I'm trying to enjoy this day off but my feelings, mind, and body won't let me do I started to get dressed and walked out the door I just sat outside trying to enjoy this nice weather we have today but Jrew still runs across my head I was on my phone trying to send Jrew messages of how I feel and wanted to tell him that it's just best that we stop this before one of us ends up getting hurt but I kept deleting what I was typing until I said Fuck this and just put my phone in my pocket so I stood up and just decided to go to the store and just buy an snickers bar or just something sweet as I walked into the store which is name V.S.O.P liquor and trying to find somthing sweet to snack on next thing I heard oh you trying to stay thick for daddy as I turn around and seen Jrew which a big ass smile on his face I was lost of words for a moment and was even stuttering when he ask that he sent me two text messages yesterday and why I didn't respond but when I was ready to speak he stopped me and said you know what I understand you don't have to say nothing I know it's hard and it's very hard for me to but you and me know we can't end this no time soon so let just enjoy this moment now mind you I'm scared happy and horny on the inside it's a lot of emotions going on with me so I just told me can we just go to your place and he agreed to go chill at his place he even paid for my candy bar and two bags of chips and a juice I was about to purchase so as we walk out of the store and on his way to his house I could hear his music before we even walk into his porch and oh my god he was playing my favorite song Oceans by Jacquees and the song just started so we went into the house I sat down on the couch and as he closed the door he said naw we going into the room all the things that I wanted to say to him as of right now I couldn't it was like he had an spell on me I just did as he said as if I was his sex slave I got off the couch and started making my way to his room and while he was behind me I could feel his strong energy near me all that sexiness that's behind me I stop I froze he closed the door I told him where was mom dukes at he said she's at work and plus she doing overtime tonight my heart started to beat real heavy I can feel him starting to come towards from behind and he take his remote and turns the volume up and just next thing you know he grabs me and starts sucking on my neck my bag with my junk in it fell to the floor as he whispered to me in my ear that I can not leave you alone and that the chemistry we had together in bed is so amazing after he said that which probably sound lame or weak to some people but those words right there to me and he's packing and Jrew is sexy as fuck I couldn't do nothing else but to just throw this ass back on him
