Where Did I Go Wrong?(Miraculous Ladybug)

I Hate You!

Adrien's POV

It has been weeks since Ladybug rejected me and since then I have been taking out my pain on others.

I know it's wrong but I don't wanna stop.

I dunno why.

Nino and Alya have been trying to talk some sense into me but I don't think it is gonna work.

There have been so much akuma attacks but I never go to help.

I just transform then watch her from a roof.

I don't let her see me only when I am sure that she is about to transform back at least she won't have time to talk to me.

I know I am being a useless partner but all those akumas are weak and I promised myself to come in when she is in a critical situation

Marinette.

That girl.

She is so annoying!

She is the only person that stands up to me and that really gets on my nerves, but it also impresses me.

She has everything I've always wanted.

She has friends, a good home, nice parents.

No matter how many times I try to make her feel she has nothing, she never believes.

I've gotta admit to myself I am jealous maybe that is the reason why I hate seeing her happy.

She has more than enough. 

She has everything I can't get.

It is so frustrating when she gets more.

What's wrong with me?

Why am I so jealous and even if I am, why do I have to be so aggressive?

My life is so wrecked and stupid.

Why am I acting like this?

Why can't I stop?

My emotions are so confusing.

I hate seeing her smile but at the same time I love... I love seeing her happy but at the same time I want to make her cry.

What's wrong with me?

Ugh!

What I would do to get rid of these messed up feelings.

"Is anything wrong Adrien?" Nino asked.

I shook my head, no.

I could hear Marinette's annoying giggle from behind me along with Alya's.

I sighed.

I don't want Mari to stop.

I enjoy arguing with her as long as we get to talk but I hate talking to her. I really want this to stop it is just so confusing.