Love is the Devil *on hold*

Chapter 7

I look in the mirror with a small want to cover the bags under my eyes. And I would go to school without looking like a zombie, but I have no makeup, and no time to buy some. I pour a large cup of coffee and drink it throughout my morning. I haven't slept in a couple days, to nervous about what Alexander might do to me.  My stomach begins churning as I think about. I clamp my mouth shut and start on my way to school. ding. I look down at my phone receiving a text from my mom-

The contract is taking a little longer to sign than I thought it would. I won't be home for a while. I'm really sorry.

Anger rises up in me. As I walk a jump and tear a branch from a tree, and snap the branch in half. I turn to a bush and start beating it with the halves of the branch. I start crying when I realize I really am alone. I viciously wipe the tears away from my face and continue walking, before I lose my early edge to school.

I arrive in homeroom well before the bell with nothing to do. All my late nights mean no need for any undone assignments. And more time to be alone with my on torturous thoughts. I pull out my phone and plug in my headphones. I listen to music for a while and don't notice when I'm lulled to sleep.

Smoke fills my lungs. 'Go to the cliff'  a voice whispers in my head. Panic seizes up in me. "NO!" I scream over the roar of the fire. I try to will myself out of the dream. I jump into blackness, my exhaustion tangible in the air around me. I feel my body in this state of half sleep, and hear the world around me. "Are you asleep?" I jump at the sudden voice in the darkness. Lucifer? I need to be awake! I start trying to claw myself out of sleep.

I gasp as I sit up in my chair, and am met with a startled look from Lucifer.

"I'll take that as a no." He said as I noticed the bags under his eyes. A sick satisfaction settles over me to know that he isn't sleeping well either. The pains in my chest have faded only slightly ever since I figured out that they were in some connection to Lucifer and the dream. As well as a lot of painkillers. I turn away from him as to not let myself stare.

"What do you want?"

"To...apologise. Your friend Julia, she came and talked to me. I admit I was rude, in the way I rejected you..."

"Rude? Julia? I'm sorry if this is 'rude' but I don't want an apology, and if I did I would want a real one! Not some b.s. you think will make me feel better!" as I say this the pain in my chest spikes, but instead of crippling it strengthens me.

A smirk plays on his lips before saying, "God, I missed you." I scowl at him and settle back into my chair stuffing my phone back into my backpack.

"Hey!" Julia says in a sing-songy way as she dances into the room. I look up ready to smile then remember that she spoke to Lucifer, and the scowl makes it way back on my face. "Turn that frown upside down! What's wrong?" She says this as she tugs at my face pulling it into a smile. I bat her hands away before I grab her arm and pull her out of the classroom.

"What the fuck?! excuse my language," I say the last part under my breath, knowing it takes away from the message I'm trying to give.

"What??" Julia says softly trying to feign innocence. I glare at her until she finally dropped the charade. "Fine! I talked to Lucifer. But it's not like I planned on it! I ran into him on my way home, and he asked how you were. I told him you were awful, cause I mean look  at you." She says this gesturing at me. "And then he cursed a whole bunch and punched a tree..."

"Don't talk to him anymore..." I say not wanting to explain the dream thing to her. She's a very practical person and wouldn't believe it for a second.

"Why not? You two would be so cute together!"

"Just... just drop it ok?" I say pleadingly. Julia begins to say something but freezes completely. Not a second later a feel an arm around my shoulder.

"Babe, what are you doing out here? Class is about to start!" Alexander says, making Julia's eyes go wide. She looks at me expecting me to explain, but I don't say anything.

"Julia," I say trying to stop my voice from wavering, "Go back to class without me ok?"

She looks at me questioningly before complying and walking away.

"Smart move," Alexander whispers in my ear before slamming me against the wall. "I feel like you have been avoiding me, Angela." He hisses in my ear. "More than usual." And it was true. I would avoid going down the more populated hallways, using the abandon ones. Taking longer ways to classes. So he wouldn't have the chance to do anything. He grabs me suddenly and pulls me into a kiss. I attempt to fight him off but he pins my arms against the wall.

I'm shoved against a white wall. A man is pinning me to the wall with my hands above my head. " Phthonus! Please don't do this!" The words come from my mouth easily. As if I have said them a thousand times. "Your mine!" He growls. "Not Pan's! Not anyone else! You belong to me!" I bring my knee to his crotch hard and fast. "Ah!" He screams out and releases me. He crouches in pain as I slump to the floor. I start crying when I realize I inflicted pain upon another angel. Pans' voice in my head makes me feel better by telling me it was self-defense. I wipe away my tears and stand up. "I'm not yours!" I scream. "And I'm not Pans'! I don't belong to anyone, but myself!" I scream, Pans' voice echoing in my head. I feel fog in my head clearing... Who's Pan? And who's Phthonus?

I snap back to reality and launch my knee into Alexander's crotch, just as what happened in my vision. But instead of immediately falling away, Alexander slaps me while growling "Bitch!" And then he falls to the ground. I glance at the clock and realize only a minute had passed. I run away from Alexander hurriedly and back into class. Just in time for the bell to ring.