My Inner Light

To Ty'Asia from Arlene

Do you remember? They day we met. I remember it like it was yesterday. You was talking to my sister, and then I saw it, your bright smile, I wish my heart could have melted, but it was already broken. You know the story of how my heart was broken. I thought I found love. But I was wrong. On top of that my mom was the dark reflection of me. I've been damaged by her. And you may think: where is my father? He was happy with another women. I was alone. I needed someone. But I never thought that someone would be you. Do you remember this day: July 4, 2017. I didn't think I was going to see you again, but I did. You was gorgeous. You smile could stop a whole room. It felt like you was healing my heart, and you wasn't even mine. That night we had a blast. Singing and dancing all night. But every good thing had to come to the end. She left. Suddenly, my heart started to cry. I wanted you to stay.  I wanted you to lay in my arms, I wanted my lips to press against yours, I wanted you to feel safe with me. But did you want the same thing. July 15, 2017, you remember this day. We was in the back yard, dancing with you, never wanting to let you go. Then to make you feel special, I got down on one knee. and ask you to go out with me, to be my only. My heart was racing, waiting for you to say yes, and my heart stop pounding. I couldn't believe it. You were mine, all mine. But the things that happen nexts was not the vision I had predicted for us. The problems with the gorilla, my parents not believing in our love, people who wanted to fight me, and you was willing to help me. But the worst, was you leaving me, for another girl. My heart was cracking everyday I didn't see you. I cried every time I didn't hear your voice. The thought of that girl nasty lips pressing against yours. The thought was just killing me inside. Did you still love me? However, a miracle happen. You came crawling back. I don't know if it's me or you, but no matter how many times we fight, I can't leave you. July 15, 2018, it's been a wild ride. But it's not the end of us. There so many ways I can express my love for you. You're always there for me, you pick me up, when I have fallen. I love the way you speak your sarcasm. And no matter what happens, at the end of the day, you're mine, and not even Tre Songz was going to get in my way. Your like the stars, in my eyes you shine the brightest. I want to grow old with you, have as many kids as we want just to make you happy. And if you ever think about leaving me, I would press my lips against yours, to see what you would miss out on. I found love, but then my heart got broken, I found love, I found you, I know deep down I didn't make  a mistake, and you wouldn't break my heart like the others. You will always be mine and I would always be yours. ❤️