The Only Exception.

Dark state of mind

My heart dropped to my stomach. My body went numb, and everything went dark. Not saying I passed out, but I saw darkness...emotionally if that makes sense. Later on I was picked up by Axel and he brought me home. The car ride was silent. He didn't know that I lost my sibling, so he might've assumed it was just me being shy. Yet it wasn't. He tried to make small talk with me but I just couldn't say anything. It's like I lost my voice. "Katherine is there something wrong?" He said with his breath taking voice. I stayed silent. And looked out the window, just trying to think of what happened. And chokeing back on my tears of course. He kept asking what was wrong. I bit my lip and took in a deep breath. We finally arrived back at my apartment. Without even thinking. I got out of the car and took off. Not even saying a word. Once I to my bed I collapsed and drowned myself in tears. Hours past by that turned to days. Then a week. I never I got out of bed to eat to have a drink. I was lying in my bed numb. Then it was the day of her funeral...Of course I dressed in black. It was a cloudy sad day. I only went there for her actual burying. After that I lefted and cried. Right back where I started. Time went by and so did weeks. It has been a month since she pasted. I was still heartbroken. I haven't moved from my bed. I hadn't ate much nor drink much. Callie tried to get me out of bed but it wouldn't work. She even begged me. But I wouldn't budge. She called someone over to help get me out of bed. All three of my friends even tried to get me out. Yet it didn't work, until Axel came over. I was still in my dark room. "Katherine, what's going on. Why aren't you out of bed." Axel said walking in my room. "You've been missing practice...like alot." He said. I didn't answer and shut my eyes. He sat next to me on my bed. "Katherine can I atleast your face." He asked me. But I didn't move. "Katherine please. Don't make me get on my knees." He begged me. I was sick of the begging so turned my head around, and sat up. He Looks at me with a shocked face. "Katherine..." he said with a worried tone. He took my hand and held it gently. "There's that lovely dace I've been missing." He said with a warm smile. I started to break down like an idiot right in front of him. "She's gone! I'm never going to get her back." I said griefing. He comes closer and embraced me into his arms. "I cried into his shoulder for what felt hours. He held me and never let go. I lied back down but faceing him. He still held my hand. We talked for hours. And eventually got me out of bed. I stumbled a little since my legs were weak. He helped me I saw what I looked like in the mirror. I looked severely underweight. My eyes were dark and tired. I looked pale and sick. I can't believe I let myself come to this. I fell to my knees and cried again. Axel just held me into his arms. Hugging me securely. I've never been so severely damaged from ny sadness. Which eventually drove me to my depression. Then things got bad from there...