The Right-Wrong Person

6: Bet

I woke up with a very bad headache.. Sobrang sakit niya but I was also so sore that I don't know which pain to prioritize. I can vividly remember what happened last night. Lasing ako, sobra, but I won't use that as an excuse because I know I gave consent. This is not just Jayson's mistake, this was our mistake.

Inangat ko yung kamay niya mula sa pagkakayakap niya sakin. Tatayo na sana ko nung nagising siya.

Nakatitig lang siya sakin pagkadilat ng mata niya. I can see how handsome he is from this position. Alam ko naman na gwapo na siya dati na siya but seeing him now makes me appreciate it even more. Is this an after sex effect?

"What have we done?" Tanong niya kahit alam naman niya yung sagot. We did something terrible. Katy is a terrible girlfriend,yes. So maybe she deserved what Jayson did, but she was a great friend. Paano ko to nagawa?

This is crazy. Ni wala akong pagsisisi! Wala ako maramdaman kahit kaunti. Dun pa ko nakonsesya sa parte na yun, na hindi ako nakaramdam ng guilt sa ginawa namin.

Hindi ako nakatayo agad kasi makikita na niya yung rear ko pag tumayo ako. Pag hinatak ko naman yung kumot yung kaniya yung makikita ko. We are very much naked,obviously. Ngayon pa talaga ko tinablan ng hiya!

"Don't worry. I don't have plans of coming after you." I told him. Hindi ko maitago ang inis sa tono ng boses ko. So now he felt guilty?

I certainly did not seduce him. I also don't have plans of seducing him after this.

"That's not what I mean.. Sorry." Sabi niya sabay sandal sa headboard. Mukhang problemado.

"Do you take shots regularly ?" He said in the middle of this silence. I gave him a confused face since I can't understand what he's trying to ask.

"Birth control?" Dugtong niya pa. I suddenly panicked. Why did I not think about that? Goodness! The sex was so good I forgot the repercussions. I could get impregnated!

"You don't?" He look mortified. He must've seen my face nung tinanong niya ko.

"Hindi naman ako active. I didn't feel the need to see a doctor to have BC shots." I told him honestly. See? Dapat talaga nakikinig ako sa nanay ko. Sabi niya huwag iinom lalo na may kasamang lalaki. Nakakawala daw ng katinuan ang alak. So it's true...

My thoughts are haywired. Naiisip ko palang na buntis ako sumasakit na ulo ko. I don't even know how to change a diaper. I mean, how would I? Nagiisang anak ako. Hindi ako close sa mga pinsan ko, at bumukod na ko sa family house namin nung nagkatrabaho ako. I don't know a thing or two about raising a kid.

"Hey.. It's okay.." pagalo ni Jayson sakin. Hinawakan niya ko sa braso para mapalapit sakaniya. I really got myself in a big trouble.

Tinanggal ko yung kamay niya sa braso ko at tumayo nalang basta basta. Wala na kong pakielam kung makita niya kong nakahubad, nakita naman na niya lahat diba?

Dumiretso ko sa banyo para makapaglinis ng katawan. I need to get out of here. Baka sumabog utak ko sa kakaisip ng possibilities.

Lumabas pako ng banyo kasi nga wala naman akong dinalang pampalit pagpasok ko ng CR. Ramdam na ramdam ko yung titig niya. What? Titingin tingin siya ngayon.

I don't feel any amount of insecurity now that I am walking with no clothes at all. Sabi ko nga, nakita naman na niya lahat diba. What's left to hide?

Bumalik naman ako sa banyo matapos ng mini fashion show ko. I wore a black free-flowing dress. Tapos lumabas na din ako.

"I'll go to work. Paki lock nalang pagalis mo." Sabi ko at walang pasintabing umalis na sa apartment.

Maglulunch na pala kaya dumaan muna ko sa coffee shop na malapit sa office bago dumiretso sa office. Kasalanan nitong kape nila eh! I thought their coffee wasn't strong enough to console Jayson yesterday. Apparently, sex and alcohol was also a bad combination.