Tyler x Svetlana
I run into the bathroom and collapse to the ground, tears streaming down my face. I open my medicine cabinet and grab my razor. I look down at my arm contemplating whether or not if I should add to the college of scars.
I then realize that if I continue with my mission I will be breaking promises with the three people who mean the most in my life.
My trans friend Carter.
My best friend Luna.
And my boyfriend Tyler.
I promised that I would never go down this road again, but my life has no road anymore. If there's no road to follow what's the point. Then I'm going nowhere.
I glide the blade across my flesh. I feel relief. I feel like for once in my life I can think clearly. I dragged it across my skin a few more times until my phone went off.
Tyler's calling.
I place the blade down and rinse my arm under cold water and wrap it in a towel to stop the bleeding. I pick up this phone to hear his worried voice.
"Lana, are you ok?" He asks. It sounds as though he was crying.
I cried out, "No, Ty I'm not. My life has gone to shit. I just want it to end." I heard a sniffle from the other end of the line.
"Lana, please no. You don't want to do this. We love you,"
"Who is we Ty?!" I yelled through the phone.
"Uh Carter, Luna, myself, your parents, your siblings,"
"They don't care. I know my family doesn't. And I never talk to Carter or Luna."
"Oh, that is a filthy lie Svetlana. Stop talking about this. You're going to be ok."
I sighed, "Tyler, it's not. Tell everyone goodbye. I love you," I hang up the call and grab for my razor.
After a while, I look at my beautiful masterpiece. The shades of red falling down my arm and onto the tile.
I reach deep into the cabinet to find a bottle. I don't really care what's inside it. I only care if it kills me or not.
As I'm about to open the bottle I hear the garage door open. It's not my parents cause it's only 2 o'clock in the afternoon. I disregard the noise until I hear a voice.
"Lana! Don't you fucking dare do what you're about to do!" He yells. I silently cry to myself and whisper his name.
"Tyler"
