i only find love in a hospital bed
your lungs were collapsing and your
eyes were sunken in. i thought you were absolutely
beautiful, even with your jutting bones and hollow cheeks.
i thought you'd never leave.
your skin was dull and taut -
transparent to the bone -
and i knew it was a lost cause,
but your parents wanted you home.
they say home is where the heart is,
but your heart was overgrown.
forlorn, remorseful, desperate, it was
you i tried to save. i tried to barter with death; i begged - please believe i begged. i'm selfish, i'll admit it, but i just wanted you to stay. because without you, it's not the same;
all that's left is a closed casket and a deserted grave.
