All by Myself

confused and hateful

Do you know what it feels like to have something so close to you, this thing in reach... But you can't reach it..its there, you can almost touch it. But you can't.

That's how I feel.

About lots of things. But most of all

Natalie.

She was right there, in my sight, in reach. But I didn't do anything.

Well I did spill her coffee on her, so she's probably mad at me for that. I hope not. I mean it's not like I purposely did that.

And she was so calm too. Like she didn't even know who I was. Which was weird because she was in the huge crowd and made eye contact with me.

Ugh. I'm so confused and mad.

I looked up from my laptop, to see the other boys playing FIFA. It's one of my favorite games, but I'm not really in the mood to play. So I just watched.

Louis was winning by 3 against Harry with 2.

I looked back at was I was doing, and I realized that i have done nothing, but stare blankly at a screen with nothing on it.

Wow.

I closed my laptop and walked to the small kitchen area.

The concert was gonna start in about 5 hours, and we had to go to sound heck in an hour.

I didn't feel good though. I felt a little light headed. Oh well, it's probably nothing.

I made myself some tea and went outside for a little to get some fresh air.

I just sat there on the ground looking up at the sky starring blankly.

It was pretty chilly out here, should've brought a coat.

I don't even know what day it is.

Thursday? Friday? whatever.

I took another sip of my tea, and set it down.

Wow, it was cold out here. But somehow I was freezing and sweating.

Ok. Im going back in.

I stood up. And opened the door.

"Hey guys a lit-"

Hehehe... Sorry it's so short, but I know y'all wanted something. So here. I left ya with a little cliff hanger. Comment what you think happened.