Breaking inside

Gone and Emotionless

Erica🌸

"Ma, I'm scared" I said, whispering, to my mother.

"Don't be, dear. I will always hold you. It just a thunderstorms my dear." my mother assure me. But the thunder won't stop storming.

Looking outside my window, its raining heavily outsides and dark. Another light flicker from my window, making me jump on my mother's lap and hide my head on the crook of her neck, whimpering, wishing the thunder and raining to stop.

My room door crack open, my father figured step in, sitting beside my mother while hugging both of us, mother put me between father and her then lay on my bed while both of them hugging me till I fall asleep. Knowing they will be with me and protecting me from the storm.

*****

Opening my eyes, bring my hand to my cheek and wipe away the tears that fall from my eyes. Remembering all my mother and father memories when they still alive. Remembering the love look on my father's and mother's eyes when they look at each other. Remembering the look of concern from my mother and father when I cried on my first dance class lesson. Remebering the happy time we always spent together when my father finished his work. Remembering the way they will trying to sooth me when I'm scared. Remembering the possesiveness of my father towards me and my mother. I miss them. I miss my father and mother. I miss my father's serious face, his rare smile and my mother's beautiful.

Standing infront of my mother's and father's grave making me hard to stop crying. Trying so hard keeping myself from breaking infront of the pack members, taking a deep, hard, breath, I turn around and take one last glance on their grave, heading to my new car that I got from my father on my 17th birthday, before the attack happen, starting the engine and drive the car fast, going back to the pack house.

After arrive to the pack house, open the door and go straight, running, to my father office, mine from now on, and sit on his old like new chair, inhaling mother's and father's faint scent. My head rest on the headrest and instantly fall asleep.

*****

"Ma look! I found waterfall here! Pa, Ma come here look what I've found!" I yell loudly as my mother and father come to me while chuckling. Father pick my little 4 years old body and make me sit on his shoulder while mother wrap her hand on my father's waist.

"It is beautiful, dear." my mother say while looking at the scence infront us. She walk infront of us, taking her hands off my father's waist then open her arms wide like an angel, her dirty blonde hair reach past her waist, her crystal blue eyes close and she inhaled deeply the air and her red full lips form a smile.

Father put me down, walk behind my mother and wrap his arm around my mother figure, hugging her from behind and kiss her temple. Both of them look into each other's eyes with love in it and I knew they're madly live each other.

I shift to my snow white wolf, then run towards them, knocking both of them and jump on my father stomach. Using mindlink, I ask both of them to shift together with me.

Father shift to his big midnight black wolf and mother shift to her golden glow wolf. We run and play with each other till I feel tired and my father and mother shift back to their human self, and so do me. Father pick me up bridal style and I snuggle into his chest, inhaling his scent and fall asleep in his arm while all the way going back to our pack house.

*****

"Pick her up and put her in her room. Her whole body will aching once she woke up later," said a familiar voice, disturbing me from my sleep and dream, well memories to be exact.